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Unrequited love, also known as one-sided love or infatuation, is an emotional state in which one person loves another but the feelings are not reciprocated.

Admiring him from afar was part of my daily routine, and even though I knew that he didn't feel the same way, my heart could not help but yearn for him. It's a difficult situation to be in, and it can cause a lot of pain and heartache. He wasn't aware of my feelings and I also don't have a plan to let him know.

I was trapped in the bittersweet limbo of unrequited love.

Every time I see him my heart skips a beat and butterflies fill my stomach, but deep inside I know that my feelings will never be reciprocated.

I longed for a connection with the person I could never have, but my heart was always excited to see him, even in the face of rejection.

But how can I let go of him and move on when every fiber of my being is still yearning for his love? How can I let him go when he is always sweet and kind towards me? How can I let him free when he always takes a genuine interest in my life and makes me feel special without him realizing it?

He is always there to brighten my day and bring a smile to my face. He is always there to

unknowingly give me hope and make me believe that maybe, just maybe, there's a chance for us.

Once, he helped me overcome my anxiety attack and held my hand the entire time, making me feel protected and comforted. It was the last period of the day when I suddenly felt anxious and panicked. I entered the nearest classroom which happens to be the music room. I was alone till he walked in and saw me crying in the corner. He made me look at him and held my hand, drawing circles on them to calm me down. He sat beside me and sang me a soothing song until my breathing returned to normal and my tears dried up, I felt thankful for his presence at that moment.

He also helped me get home and made sure that I was safe before leaving. His kindness and concern for me only fueled my feelings for him, making it all more difficult to let go.

I didn't realize it back then but I was falling harder ad harder for him with each passing day.

"Are you okay?" he asked, concern evident in his eyes.

"uh-yes, i'm perfectly fine. I was just thinking about something" I replied, my heart racing. I can't help but to stare at those deep brown mesmerizing eyes. They were so beautiful that i was lost in them.

"uh-lily?" he called waving a hand in front of my face.

"oh, i'm sorry. What was it again?"  I asked, embarrassed  that i spaced out.

"I was asking you if you're free tonight? I have something to tell you and i also need your help with something" He stated while scratching the back of his head shyly, his cheeks reddened.

" y-yea, I'm free tonight. Just text me the details. Ciao~" I bid goodbye as I went on my way home, curious as to why he was acting that way earlier.

Later that night, we agreed to meet at our favorite spot which was the field beside the river. I went there, excited and nervous at the same time.  

The field was full of white roses. Their color alone was mesmerizing but with the stars it made it shine brighter and more breathtaking. There, I saw him sitting down on one of the wooden benches, with his hands on his hoodie's pocket. It was chilling as the night breeze was cold but comfortable.

I sat beside him and he smiled at me, a different kind of smile that i don't see everyday.

" Hey"

" Hi..so what did you want to talk about?"

" i-- how do i say this?" he questioned himself. " there's this girl i like, and i am not quite sure if she likes me back or not but i want to court her. What should I do to get her attention?" he continued.

I was shocked, he likes someone? I wanted to believe that it was me but i didn't want to be delusional so I asked him, my voice was silent and soft.

" who is the lucky girl? " A question that i regret asking. 

"you're one and only close friend"  he confessed, cheeks red and he was smiling shyly.

" really? I'm happy for you! i was right, you can't resist the charm of my bestie" I laughed, covering the pain i just felt. 

I wanted to tell him that i love him, to let him know that I care for him but I was afraid of what will happen. I was scared of his response, I was scared to be rejected by someone who means a lot to me.

That night, he talked how he likes her, why he likes her and I was there listening to him intently, not missing a word from him. I could tell that he truly likes her and i just hope my best friend feels the same for him, but i don't have to worry about that as I know no one can resist him.

That night, I laughed and talked with him, ignoring my aching heart. 

I was thankful for the kindness, comfort and love that he gave me.

But as much as his kindness touched my heart, I knew deep down that it was not a romantic love he felt for me.

Date written:
04/14/23