The Same - The 100

Chapter 16 - Reality

Me, Octavia, and John Murphy, we worked in the smokehouse. But Del had to join us.

He was adding wood, too much wood.

"Stop adding to the fire, knock it down with wet leaves." Octavia said.

,,Did your Grounder boyfriend advise you? Grounder-Pounder?” Del asked.

“Del shut up.” I said and Murphy spoke right after me

,,Bellamy, couldn't he find you a better job?” He asked.

,,Someone else would have to do that.” Octavia said.

I smelled smoke.

,,Really knock it down, Del, it's starting to smell like a burn.” I said.

,,Can't stand the heat of the smokehouse? Get out.” Del said.

,,You shouldn't be calling her something like that right now.” Murphy said with a smirk, knowing what I could do.

,,You should kiss our asses for letting you stay here.” Del said. That was the final point for me.

,,Del, shut up or I'll kick you out myself." I threatened, but nothing came back, on the contrary, the stench of the burn got worse.

,,It's on fire!" Octavia yelled and ran out, hoping we'd follow her, but as soon as she ran out, with Murphy barely behind her, the fire spread all over the entrance. I was the farthest from the entrance at the time.

,,Shit..." I mumbled to myself.

There was smoke everywhere, I started coughing.

,,Katarina is still there!” I heard Octavia yelling at someone in the noise.

I was a short distance from the entrance, but probably unnecessarily when the fire reached there.

I coughed more and more. Smoke was everywhere. I started seeing black dots in front of my eyes. But before I could fall into unconsciousness, due to lack of air in the lungs. Someone pulled me out, hissing from the burn.

I was pressed to the chest of the one who pulled me out.

,,Are you okay?" Bellamy asked who I was pressed to. So he pulled me out…

,,Yes…” I breathed quickly to get clean air into my lungs.

Murphy started hitting Del.

,,If you didn't add so much wood! It wouldn't happen!” Murphy yelled.

"That's enough," I said, stopping Murphy before he could hit Del again.

Murphy began to explain the cause of the fire.

,,That was our last food…” Clarke said.

,,We have to go hunting" I said.

,,With the entire Grounder army out? No.” Bellamy said.

,,We can't fight when we're starving.” Clarke said, and Bellamy gave in when there were two of us.

,,Fine, groups of two, one gun, one spear.” Bellamy said.

,,Everyone will go haunt! In pairs! One gun, and one spear! Guns are for killing Grounders, not animals! Use the spear on  animals!” I raised my voice.

Everyone ran for things.

,,You're not going anywhere.” Bellamy told me and I frowned.

,,Why?” I asked with a raised eyebrow.

,,It is dangerous. I need someone here to watch over Camp.” Bellamy said.

,,Great, another thing you're banning me from? Seriously? Who do you think you are Bellamy?” I asked slightly annoyed.

,,You're just not going anywhere. End of discussion.” Bellamy said and left.

Once everyone had gone hunting. It was just me, Raven, Jasper, Monty,  and Murphy left.

,,Raven and I are going to continue in the Fields. " I said and Raven and I left.

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We have already been working in those fields for at least four hours. And Bellamy arrived from hunting, and began to comment on our work.

,,Those mines, they must be all around Camp, and will they even work?” Bellamy started again.

,,Do you want to try one?” Raven asked.

,,Cute.” Bellamy said.

A feeling arose in me that I feel often. Jealousy. Unlike others, I can admit to jealousy. 

I got up and left. I wasn't in the mood for this, especially after I started realizing my feelings for Bellamy. 

I cared about him. I loved him. But I have to wall it off, not only would it weaken me. But I would start to care a lot about him. And I don't need that.

Love is weakness. Love is death.

I reached my tent and went to lie down. It's already dark...

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I woke up early in the morning, everything was quiet. I got dressed and left the tent.

However, what I saw shocked me.

Raven Reyes, leaving Bellamy's tent. . She looked around so as not to be seen. But as soon as she noticed me, she froze.
Her disheveled hair fell into her face. But she stood as if frozen.

I laughed to myself, I was naive to think that Bellamy could love me.

After a while she quickly left for her tent...

After a while, a tear fell on my face and I wiped it away. I don't know why, but I got angry.

If I don't have something, no one else will.