tell me we weren't just friends

Chapter Three

I knew she was watching me, I felt her eyes on me watching my every move. Maybe it was delusion, but if it wasn't I was going to play into it.

I smiled at Lilli and grabbed her hand, I squeezed it, interlocking my fingers around her palm before getting right up close to her. So close I could feel her warm breath on my own face.

"No, your beautiful Lilli.", I whispered.

The girl pulled on me hand, gesturing me to follow her. I shot Ivy a quick look to show that I was okay before following the blonde.

She led me into the girls bathroom and within seconds her hands were on my thighs, caressing them gently. My lips met hers.

I didn't care for it, I really didn't. I just wanted Noelle to see that I could move on too.

The truth was, the girl invading my mouth with her tongue was to me.
n o t h i n g

The scary part for me was I didn't care if this made me a "bad person" or a "manipulator" or a "classic gemini", whatever you want to call it. I didn't care.

Whilst my lips were busy smacking on the blonde's, my eyes were busy focusing on the girl I could see through the crack of the door.

Whoops my foot slipped creating a bigger gap in the wall, I expected Lilli to have slowed down at this point but she kept going, pinning me to the wall.

Not just Noelle's eyes were watching us, every single pair of eyes were forced on us.

Before I could do anything, I felt arms pulling me away from Lilli's body. I was eagerly getting ready to dive into the arms of Noelle and tell her everything and that I knew she still loved me and couldn't stand to see me with another girl.

However my hopes and dreams crashed when I realised it was my best friend in front of me, dragging me by the wrist.

I looked back at the toilets one last time to see Lilli back with her mates, laughing at what had just happened.

My eyes darted to Noelle. A look of utter disgust was plastered upon her face, with a wrinkled nose an all.

I disgusted her?
I was disgusting?

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"I hate her, I officially hate her. What the fuck was that look for? How dare she side eye me the little bitch??!!", I said as I angrily rambled on about Noelle to Ivy who was half listening.

She pulled an air pod out of her ear. And looked at me seriously.

Oh god she was going to tell me off.

"Lorelai I love you, and as your best friend it is my duty to tell you that you do not need some masc lesbian to make you happy. However as your best friend, it is also my duty to tell you that you were snogging a girl you barely know on the first day in front of everyone. It was pretty gross."

I sighed, knowing deep down she was right.

I rested my head on her shoulder whilst feeling an immense rush of emotion flow through me. It travelled straight into my heart causing it too feel too heavy to move.

"Ivy?", I call out cautiously.

My best friend looks at me curiously, realising the expression on my face is serious she pulls me over to a nearby bench and overlaps my hands with hers.

"What's up?", she asks as she subconsciously winds a piece of my hair around her pinky.

"Why can't she like me?",