You In My Bloody Memories. » Hwang Hyunjin

04

"Great. Thank you, Iseul." My friend, Eunjoo, says and bows ninety degrees in front of me continuously which makes me let out a laugh. She was always the type to be unintentionally funny, and I loved her for that a lot.

"It's nothing." I say after she stopped bowing in front of me a hundred times and finally stood up straight. I could tell she was starting to feel lightheaded because of the way she was continuously going up and then down for like six times.

"No, it really is a lot. I don't know where I would be without you." She says and dramatically wipes a fake tear flowing down her eye and flicking back her finger, throwing the 'tear' away.

"I told you it is nothing. My siblings moved out so I am just alone. A week is nothing." I said to her who continued to cling onto me while smiling. Even though it actually was a lot to let her live in my house with me when I finally had some alone time for myself, I just cannot say--- "No. You cannot live with me because I need time for myself."

"You're the best, Iseul." She says and side hugs me again. Physical contact, my love. She knows very well how much I love when people cling onto me, and this is her way of thanking me I assume because she also knows I would never accept a thank you gift.

"I know I am the best. Tell me something I don't know." I say sarcastically and flip my hair back as she smiles at me as well.

She was there for me from the start. When I was suffering because of my mother's sudden death, she was the one who made me laugh. She was the one who made sure I ate in school and won't starve myself. She was the one who made sure I never feel lonely or sad. I love her to death and now that she is not in the best state of life, I want to be for her just like she was.

"Then I suppose you know how much I love you." She says and wiggles her eyebrows at me, which makes me smile. Of course she loves me. I mean, she has to–

"Yes. I know that as well." I say confidently and grab my iced coffee from the table, taking a sip out of it. As soon as I placed my order, I regretted it and wanted to change it, but I do not have the courage for it. People scare me.

"That is even better." She then frees my arm from her grip and leans back to take a sip from her drink. She gulps down the coffee, takes a bite from the cookies laid on a plate and then looks— no, no, admires the cookies.

"I never had such brilliant cookies."

•••

After me and her left the coffee shop and made our way back to our workplace, what I felt was that something was unusual. I could feel myself growing anxious as the second passed and turned into minutes.

Ah, just another of those mood swings.

Too frequent to be just mood swings.

"Iseul? You okay?" Eunjoo asks me, visually concerned. I could tell that she sensed my sudden mood change. I was just laughing with her ten minutes ago and here I am now, anxious.

"Yeah, I am okay. Just mood swings." I say and 'try' to reassure her with a smile. It definitely did not work but at least I added  some effort.

She did not reply after that. She most probably didn't have anything to say. What could someone possibly answer when someone feels anxious all of a sudden and then excuses it as only mood swings? I would quiet down too.

•••

Headache. Another one. Strikes of headaches. Only headaches. Nothing else. Headaches breaking open my head—-

Alright, I'll stop there now.

But this headache is killing me.

It is probably because of the lack of sleep. And the lack of sleep is probably because of the caffeine intake throughout the day. How much I wish I did not have a headache every other day. That is not too much to ask for, then why can't I live without headaches? I might as well just consider dying now. At least I will be free from headaches that way.

I hate how I still have to go to work today.

When will Sunday arrive?

It was literally the day before yesterday.

I hate my life. I want a Sunday right now.

«Time Skip»

I sigh and take a seat on my chair inside my cabin. My headache only grew more. I already took a painkiller, but it did not help at all. What is even worse is that I have to work now. Why can't my life stay with peace for just a month without any pain or sadness? That again might be too much to ask for, but I still deserve it.

I hear a light knock on the door, as the one who knocked enters even before I could give them permission. I raise up my head to see who the fuck entered my cabin without letting me allow. What if I was naked? But, why would I be naked in my office? Nevermind.

"Iseul, he is here. Please come with me to visit him in the canteen." Eunjoo pleads in front of me. Who did she even mean by the 'he'?

"Who?" I ask.

"Jake." She answers me as a blush takes place on her cheeks.

"Why do you want me to come with you? He is your crush." I say and lean back on my chair, feeling the headache grow stronger.

"He is, but he is your best friend before that. And you are my friend too, so you have to be by my side while I talk to him so I don't freak out."

[AUTHOR'S NOTE]
Hello!!

Here is the fourth part! I know it is not the best, but I did try my best in updating!

Plus, the stories I write are always so short and fast paced. Please give me tips on slowing down the pace and increasing the word count! That would be a lot to me!

I hope you enjoy!