Marvel angst one-shots

Oh Ana

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female reader, title from a mother mother song called Oh ana TW's: Eating disorder, swearing, depressing thoughts, sh talk but no actual sh, body dysmorphia, and talk of weight loss, bmi's(I used female to calc bmi but it is never stated), and good/bad weight. Not my actual opinions but thoughts of someone who might have an ed. y/n will be overestimating cals. I'm also a dumb american so I apologize for using lbs. In this you are Wanda and Vision's kid and friends with Peter bc u go to the same school. You, Billy, and Tommy are biological siblings which Wanda adopted and Vision was never destroyed plus the avengers aren't dead because fuck that. And the avengers compound never blew up and it's location is still a secret. And this time italics are not reader thoughts but the eating disorder's and n/n means nick name. Anyhow this is a longggg one so buckle up 

y/n's pov: 

I was sitting with my family at a restaurant when it happened. I was scrolling through twitter and saw a thread on how to lose weight quickly. The tag said edtwt. I didn't know what that was so I looked it up. What I found was a community of people praising someone named Ana for helping them lose so much weight so quickly.

I was never the skinny kid by any means. I never liked how my body looked, I couldn't stand mirrors. It couldn't hurt to lose weight. I weight 180 lbs at 5'8'. I figured I would research when I get back to the compound. For now I'm going to enjoy family dinner. 

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Dinner was good and the second I knew everyone was asleep I went back onto twitter and searched up edtwt. I found results and went through them. One said something about ana being short for anorexia and so I searched it up. Apparently anorexia is an eating disorder    characterized by relentless drive for thinness with a fear of gaining body weight associated with self induced behaviors towards thinness. I mean it doesn't sound so bad. I could become anorexic and then stop once I'm comfortable with my weight. Right? I look at some of the thinspo on the site and some of them look super skinny but I'm not gonna go that far. I decide to look at threads of how to become anorexic. Mostly just restriction and exercise. Plus the occasional fasting of some people. 

I decide to make an account. I'm not gonna use my real name just incase. I make the username @ wannabe. I don't know why it's the first thing that came to mind and log on. 

I saw people who asked for moots on a tweet. Which I learned was short for mutuals and decided to make one. 

You can call me n/n

not gonna say cw bc im very new to edtwt

looking for moots plzzz 

Also plz someone help me im very new to ed's in general

I decide that's good and post it. I edit my page a bit to make it more decorative and I scroll a bit more. A minute or two later I see something about BMI's. It will tell you if you are overweight and by how much I decide to look one up and put in my measurements. 27.4  the screen lit up. Not far away from obese. How the fuck could I let myself get like this.

I am disappointed in myself and quickly download two apps to my phone. MyFitnessPal and Life the first one counts calories and the other one is a fasting app just incase. I log off for the night and go to bed. 

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The next morning I decide to just eat like usual and see how much I eat so that I know what a good starting calorie intake would be. I go downstairs and get some cereal like usual quickly look at the serving size of 1 cup even though I usually have double that so double the cals meaning 320 just for breakfast. I eat my cereal and head out to Happy's car where Peter is late per usual.