Destiny Counts

forgive not forget

Aafrah's POV
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I feel sorry for him but what am I going to do?,I've no clue where to start from but I know I have to make a decision fast.

But what if I don't make the right decision, what if it's all a trick,a trap or something, what if I don't succeed in what I am going to do?? These questions that I don't have any answers to are really eating me up.

I've always been independent all my life. Am I ready to make any compromise? Oh Allah!! I seek for your assistance, guidance, help me and show me the path to righteousness.

I inhaled a deep breath and sighed. I have decided to not to say anything about the proposal thing until I perform istikhara (a way of seeking for Allah's guidance).

I looked at my watch and realized that we are already late and we have to leave fast before the bomb waiting for us at the airport explodes but Faisal is not ready to make any move so I have to calm him down so that he will be out of this mental state he has put himself into.

"Faisal..."I managed to call but he didn't respond. I tried calling him again and yet no reply so I knelt down so that I could face him but his eyes were closed,tears were still rolling down onto his cheeks.

I dislike seeing a man crying for a woman and even though he was emotionally down because of me, It ddnt feel special or anything but I know that some women would be at the top of the world when a guy is crying for them but I ddnt feel that way. Maybe it's because I don't love him. Whatever it is,it doesn't seem right for me to emotionally break him down like this.I have to apologize.

"I'm..m sorry" I said in a whisper loud enough for him to hear. "I'm sorry for all that I've done or said to you ,even though I know that you deserve it but punishing you doesn't make any difference between you and me,but I can never do what you did to me to anyone. Only Allah can punish you but I forgive you." I said .

He opened his eyes that were closed and looked at me. There were nothing in them but love,sorrows and other emotions that I can't explain. He was staring into my eyes but I locked up all emotions. Am not good at hiding my feelings but I tried to hide them now. His red eyes still fixed on me which made me tense but I composed my self and continued.

"I forgive you not because you deserve it but because I want to make a difference, I forgive you because I can't go on hurting you and do something that I'll regret, I forgive you because I hope Allah will also forgive me for my sins,I forgive you Faisal because I don't want to hurt anyone but you leave me no choice but to hurt you but no matter how much I hurt you, I don't feel good about it so why continue with something that I don't feel good or proud of ?, you hurt me ten times more than I've hurt you but still I forgive you." I said to him.

He was surprised by what I said,his eyes went wide and I bet he is shocked. Our gaze locked for some minutes,he was staring deep into my eyes and I ddnt blink we kept staring at each other for God knows how long.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets so love the people who treat you right,forget those who don't believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance,take it.I think he deserves another chance.

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Faisal's POV

She forgives me!!! Oh my!! Am I dreaming or what? Is this for real? I kept staring at her trying to figure out if she truly mean it and to my surprise,she mean it but her eyes held no emotions at all. I stood up,wipe the dirt my pants, cleaned my face with the tissue in my pocket and walked to where she d if standing.

I was shattered when she closed the Tiffany box and walked away,my heart broke into pieces,I was emotionally wrecked,the world was spinning around me, my vision went blur and I couldn't do anything. But she is right,I don't deserve her but I pray that Allah should grant my one dying wish and make her my wife and I know she will be an amazing wife,a good mother to my children and an ideal daughter-in-law for my parents.

I was lost in my thoughts that I ddnt realize that she is trying to leave maybe because I was thinking and looking at her at the same time,she will think that I am insane so she decided to leave. Out of nowhere I find myself calling her name.

"Aafrah..."I called with a shaky voice. She stopped and turned to face me ,I mustered up all the courage i have left and walked towards her because there is a slight distance between us. I looked at her but this time her gaze is fixed to the ground and mine is fixed on her. I love her eyes,they are innocent and I can spend my whole day staring deep into them,sometimes I get lost in them and forget everything around me.

"I know am not worth your forgiveness, I have hurt you times without number but still you find it in your heart to forgive me I tease you,annoy you,flirt with you but its all because I love you. I'm grateful for what you have done and I promise you that you won't regret your decision "I said to her.

Since the first day I saw her after ten years at the airport, my love for her increased but I wanted to hide it by teasing, annoying,flirting and irritating her,I thought maybe it's the only way to get rid of the feelings I have for her but it ddnt work.

"You have forgiven me for what I've done and I know you won't forget it and am not asking you to forget it but please just accept my last humble request "I asked her and she just gave me a nod then I continued "can we at least be friends? " This time she raised her head and met my gaze and replied "umm....umm yesss.. I mean sure uumm... why not,sorry I meant to say yeah we can be friends" she stammered."So...mmm can we leave because that monster is waiting for us at the airport and I don't want any of her trouble".I said, she laughed and I chuckled.

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Aafrah's POV
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We drove out of the deserted beach and head to the airport. I know my Besty and I know she is about to explode,she hates waiting and we kept her waiting so we have to bear with whatever she's going to say.

Throughout the journey was awkward,we were silent nobody said anything,I wasn't comfortable because of what happened earlier at the beach.It kept on replaying on my mind I can't get it out of my mind,I keep thinking about it.

We arrived at the airport in twenty minutes,we searched for her but we didn't find her then I tried calling her."I have been calling her but she is not responding to her calls" I said to him

"Well we have to wait for her if not she will blast the whole airport". Faisal said. "Oh!there she is" I shouted .

After minutes of nagging we apologized for being late then we head home. The whole ride we were talking about what to do during the holiday season and Faisal was just smiling at us. I know we are gonna have fun.

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Picture of aafrah by the side