Cataclysmic

Momma's Sweet Baby

Momma's Sweet Baby

July 19th, 2018

You'd think I'd just forget about you?

Like everyone else had...

I was raising myself,

I couldn't even care for myself,

How could I possibly take care of you as well?

How could I protect you...

When I felt Defenseless to my own thoughts.

Yet, I still always wonder,

Would you have had your Daddy's eyes?

Would you have had my Smile?

Maybe, Just possibly, you'd have your uncle Dimples,

And no matter how hard I would deny it,

I'd hope you'd have your Grandpa's too.

I begged to be forgiven,

I'm so Sorry Baby,

Momma's Sweet Baby,

I had no idea.

And Sometimes I sit on our bed,

I imagine a different world,

One where I hadn't lost you...

When I feel sad,

Your daddy doesn't understand,

That the day I lost you, I lost a piece of myself too,

And I don't know how to tell him,

That I miss our Unborn child,

More thank I miss him,

But, I promise,

Your Daddy would have loved you all the same.

So I just imagine,

Just for a moment,

Would you have had your daddy's brown hair?

Would you have gotten his freckles?

Would you have my Icicle irises.

But I suppose now,

I have to believe there was a bigger plan for you,

Amongst the clouds,

Among the thoughts,

And I wasn't meant to be apart of them, Sweet baby,

But don't you worry,

I'll be with you someday,

Momma's Sweet baby Boy.