BEAUS P.O.V
As I walk to the door I slip the key into the lock and turn it, I hear a click and the door opens with a slight creak, "I'm home guys!" I shout wondering who would still be in the house
"In here." I hear a voice coming from the living room and walk in the direction of the voice,
"Oh, Luke ,you're home." My heart starts to beat faster, I know it's not right, but I can't help it "how are you?" I had been hiding my true feelings from Luke for years but I'm not sure how long I can keep it up.
Incidental sit with him on the couch "have you had a good day?"
"Sure, how was your day." When Luke says this it snaps me back to reality, I had been staring at Luke
"Ok, I guess" I answer unsure of what the question actually was suddenly I can't control it and I surge forward and hug Luke his face was priceless. He froze and there was a silence before Luke awkwardly says "Beau, did you just get a boner?" I panic and Look down and Luke was right, I did have a boner, I let go of Luke quickly and got up and walked out the room.
Is this it? Is my cover blown?
Luke follows me into the kitchen "Beau what the Fuck was that about?" I just look at him but find myself staring into his eyes, Luke just stares back, no one dared to talk.
Suddenly there was a creak and the others burst through the door, Luke just gives me his 'they don't have to know about this' look and I just turn and start getting ingredients out of the fridge (it's my turn to cook for the tribe) I decide upon a subtle spaghetti Bolognese and a sprinkling of parmisan on top, guess I better get to work.
Luke's p.o.v
Dude I don't even know what that was about but I'm glad it's over, I love Beau but what happened today was just too fucking weird.
Jai interrupts my thoughts as he barges into the room "James wants you." And he simply walks away.
I walk into James' room and decide not to talk about it I just act cool "hey dude, you want me?"
"Yeah. What's going on with Beau? I asked jai but he has no idea, I thought maybe he said something to you before we got here."
"He did more than say something." I mumble under my breathe no one could hear me, or that's what I thought! I looked up and James was staring at me with a shocked expression on his face "so you know what's wrong with him?"
"Uh, he had an argument with a friend or something."
"Ok but it must be a really close friend, have you seen him since we got back?"
"No, why?"
"Maybe you should go seen him" I wonder what James is talking about but despite everything that had happened I'm still concerned for my bro so I rush to the kitchen and find Beau crying over the work surface whilst he cooks the dinner he didn't notice me walking in
"Beau, are you ok?" He quickly wipes his eyes
"Of course, these onions make you cry, holy shit!"
"Beau you haven't even cut any onions." Beau now looks puzzled on what to say and just carry on cutting the veg. "Look Beau I love you but only as a brother, I hate seeing you like this."
"I wouldn't be like this if you were never born!" He looks at me and I know he meant it by the look in his eyes. "My life was fine before you were born I didn't have to hide my love for people..." Beau suddenly trails off and is staring at the door "Jai, I didn't mean..." I look at my twin and he is clearly upset and has taken this to heart "shit!" Beau suddenly throws the knife on the counter "Jai.... JAI!! I didn't mean it like that, me and Luke were arguing that's all."
I'm left alone in the kitchen and watching my family, without thinking I pick up the knife and place it on my wrist and put pressure before slicing, it stung but then I swear the blood and the pain of seeing my family fall apart got better so I cut more and more until it was all the way up to the inside of my elbow I stand and watch the blood spill out of my arm and watch it drip to the floor. I stood in silence for sometime before Beau walked back into the kitchen "Jai's fine now, I explained were just..." I look up at him and his eyes are filled with worry and panic but he is frozen on the spot "what the Fuck Luke!?" I look at the floor and there is a puddle of my blood,
"It feels better now Beau,"
"What does?"
I simply reply "the pain." I stand there still watching my blood pour from my veins when suddenly I'm grabbed by Jai,
"Jesus Christ Luke!, why? Why did you do it?" He wraps my arm in bandages and takes the knife from my hand "Beau take him into the other room while I run and get James."
Beau takes me to the living room and sits me on the couch, suddenly richer a rumble and both Jai and James are running down the stairs "he's in there." I hear Jai whisper to James.
James approaches me calmly and slowly and just sits next to me "dude are you ok?"
"No" I say point blankly, what a stupid question to ask I'm clearly not alright
"Do you wanna talk about it?"
"No, not with you , I want to talk to Beau" I'm suddenly interrupted by Beau screaming,
"No!! No!!" James and Jai both look up slightly confused "I'll only make it worse, it's my fault he did this in the first place!"
"Why, what did you do?" Jai is clearly angry and I fear if Beau doesn't answer soon Jai may come to the wrong conclusion.
"I admitted it."
"Admitted what?"
"I know it's not right but don't judge me, ok?"
"Of course." James suddenly jumps into the conversation
"I..." Beau looks nervous but he needs to do this "I fancy Luke, I know he's my brother but I can't help it!" The whole room goes quite and remains that way until Beau stands and says he's going to bed and runs upstairs like nothing has happened and the others do the same leaving me on the couch, just sitting, thinking.
