That night we all sat in the living room watching T.V I was sat with Jai and Beau was leaning on my shoulder and James was close by but Daniel refused to be in the same room as us but we didn't mind too much, after all it was a lot to take in that two of your best friends, who were brothers, were also 'bum buddies' as he puts it.
Suddenly James speaks out from behind me which makes me jump which, in turn make Beau look at me in concern "Guys it's Dan, he says he's quitting the group."
We all look at each over in shock until Jai shoots up and runs after Daniel, I wonder what he's going to say to change Daniels mind but decide not to worry about it. James follows Jai and it's just me and Beau alone, I've been dreading this moment all day, Beau then leans forward and kisses me the kiss getting more and more heated and I go along with it, it would break Beaus heart if I didnt, suddenly he stops kissing my lips and goes down to my neck and he suddenly bites it, I close my eyes tight and just bare through it as he sucks where he has bitten then as suddenly as he had started he stops and returns to my lips before pushing me onto my back and kissing me laying on top of me I just try to be convincing so he doesn't suspect anything.
"I'm going upstairs Lukey, are you coming with me?" Beau asks as he stands and heads towards the door.
"Um, no I'm gonna make food for the others incase they're hungry when they get back." I say with a smile on my face as I get up and head to the kitchen. Of course I'm not really cooking but I am going to use a knife.
As I unwrap my bandages I wonder how much longer I could keep up the act. As I press the cold steel upto my skin I feel a tingle, as I press harder and then swipe it across I feel both relief and content as I watch the blood spill I feel all my worry leave my mind as I see the harm I can do to myself, it's not Beaus fault, I want to make him happy and if this is what I need to do this then so be it. What's the worse that can happen?
As I continue to slice I hear the door creak open and I rush to hide the knife and MOP the floor and redo my bandage but I wasn't fast enough Daniel walks into the kitchen and sees me, he says nothing but walks towards me with an expressionless face I hate to admit it but for once I'm scared of what he'll do he raises his arm and I close my eyes expecting him to hit me, but he doesn't, instead he just hugs me and won't let good then Jai and James walk in and just stare so I just shrug unsure of what to say, or do.
They just leave and go to bed whilst Daniel is still hugging me I think he's crying but I'm not sure. He looks up at me and I can see he is trying his hardest to keep himself together "Jai told me what your doing, stay strong Luke you can get through this," he pauses and then says "After all you got through the _________ challenge!" He says with a hint of a smile, trying to be his normal self.
I slept in my room that night so Beau didn't see my fresh cuts even though they were bandaged the blood was seeping through and if Beau found out this is what our relationship did to me I don't know what he'd do.
