Imani had gotten her life back together after the incident and was now living the life of a fast rising new model. She could finally say she had gotten her dream life until some of her past comes back to haunt her
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"I've been going through something. 1,855 days...I've been going through something."
Lately things with April have been difficult. Since the day I had my photoshoot she's been acting weird with me. It's almost like my pure existent annoys her. I'll walk into a room and try and sit next to her and she'll either move or get up and leave.
It almost makes me question our relationship now. Every time someone calls her she'll jump up and leave the room which she does all the time now, before she used to have no issue answering the phone in front of me.
None of her behavior lately makes me feel good about our relationship and where it could possibly end up. It's like she's becoming a different person lately.
I sat on the couch in our living room reading a book as I hear the front door open. April then walks into the house kicking off her shoes and walks straight past me to the kitchen without saying a word to me.
I was fed up with her attitude as I throw my book onto the coffee table and walk into the kitchen. "So we don't say hi to each other now when we come in the house?" She looks up at me from the fridge and goes back in to grab a bottle of wine. "Hi." It was a quick dry reply.
"April what is your problem lately? I don't know what's going on with you but what ever it is if I did something tell me, if not redirect your attitude to whoever pissed you off not me." I didn't get it. I did nothing to this girl and now all of a sudden she acts like I'm not her girlfriend.
"Imani I've had a long day at work ok? I want to be left alone is that to much to ask for?" She grabs the bottle of wine and a glass and storms off to her office and slams the door behind her.
She acts like I don't exist anymore and I don't know what I did for her to feel this way towards me and it sucks because I do nothing but show her love. Since the day I've met her I've done nothing but show her love and this is what I get back in return.
It makes me want to flip the fuck out but I know I can't do that because it could go wrong in so many ways. It makes me question if I want to keep being with her or not. I try to outweigh the good and bad moments but all I can really think about is the bad ones.
The way she talks to me and treats me lately makes me feel like she hates me and sort of makes me hate myself because now I feel like I did something wrong. Later that night I chose not to even sleep in the same bed with her.
I just settled for the couch. I laid there staring up at the ceiling and soon I heard footsteps. "Mani come to bed." I look over at April standing in the entry way of the living room and look back up at the ceiling. "No I think I'm good."
"Imani me and you both know that couch is not comfortable enough to sleep on." She was right but I'd prefer that then sleeping in a bed with someone who chooses to not even sleep close to me anymore.
"I said I'm good right here." She sighs, walking away mumbling to herself but I call out her name stopping her. "April do you still love me?" She turns around, making her way to the couch sitting across from me.
"Baby of course I do. It's just I've been going through something recently I'm trying not to let it get the best of me." A small part of me felt like she was just talk but the rest of me felt like she was genuinely telling the truth. "I get that but I've been going through something too. You might not know it but my head is like a war zone right now."
I look down at the Cartier ring on my finger and all I could think about was Billie and how things would most likely be so much different if that night wouldn't have happened. We'd be coming up on our two year anniversary of us being together and she's probably go out of her way to surprise me with something I didn't deserve.
She practically set the bar above the moon with me when it came to my dating standards and now I feel like I just lowered that bar back down to earth with the way my current relationship is going.
April used to go out of her way for me when we first got together and now I basically just get the bare minimum from her. I'm not a person that ask for much, I'm very simple but we don't go on dates anymore or on little outings with each other.
I sort of blame work for that but then again even if I tried to make time I feel like she'd just throw some sort of dumb excuse at me to get out of it. It hurts my heart to ever think about our relationship ending over this. I'd get if it was something major but this was all over a dumb reason. I just wanted the April back that I got when we first met.
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Finneas thought it would be a good idea to go out to lunch today to help me get my mind off things. I get out of my car and lock it behind me as I turn around and look up at a billboard on top of a building.
Plastered on it was a big Calvin Klein ad with a very familiar face on it. As I look harder I notice it was Imani. I guess she went and started her modeling career like she always wanted to.
This wasn't going to help. Now I have to see her everywhere I go. We sat at a table as I played with my straw in my drink and finally decided to speak up.
"I think I'm going to try and start talking to her again." Finneas looks up from his menu with a bit of a shocked look on his face. "Really? You are?" I just softly nod staring down at my shoes under the table. "I mean why not? I really do miss her and even if she has moved on I don't see the harm in at least being on some sort of good terms.
I missed Imani really much and if she did move on I had no reason to be mad about it. I went to jail for 2 years and didn't try and contact her not once so if anything I don't blame her. "Well have you tried contacting at all yet?"
"Uh no I haven't still sort of trying to figure out how to approach that. I don't know if her number is still the same or not." I was sort of giving excuses to kind of hold off on reaching out to her but I knew my brother wasn't going to fall for it.
"Billie cmon now. Even if her number isn't the same the girls clearly a big name in the modeling world, I'm sure she's got a public instagram account." See just like I said, he wasn't going to fall for it. "I know I'm just still nervous about it is all."
"I get it Bil just ease yourself into it when you're ready. But don't wait too long before it's too late." He was right. I've got to stop being a pussy about all of this. If this was the old me I would have been contacted Imani by now and we'd probably be on good terms by now.
Once we leave lunch finneas went home in his car and I chose to stay out for a bit more. After a bit of driving around I decided to just go back to my house for the day. Once inside I sit in the couch and look up Imani's instagram.
After looking through her page I find a picture of her and some tall ginger haired girl, reading the caption realizing it was her girlfriend. This is what I was afraid of, now I know I definitely don't have a chance of getting her back.
As I look further I see another picture of her outside of a familiar looking building than I realize it's the condo apartments not far from here. I sat and start mapping out an idea of how I was going to start talking to her again.
It was a bit of a bold decision but it was the only way I felt I was brave enough to do even if it was crazy.
