First Eight [PART 2]

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frannie luv

11:46 PM

i still don't understand what happened katie

di kita maintindihan sa sobbing mo

tell me ano nangyari so i can deliver his balls to you in a gift box

Our song kanina was

Unsteady by X Ambassadors

The Erich Lee Gravity remix

oh

heavy on the feelings masyado...?

Not only that with the song choice and choreography

We had blindfolds

We'll remove them sa may bandang end

Pero most of the dance, we can't see anything

We had to feel each other

That was the point, I think

ok naiintindihan ko

tapos?

And recently

Rhein has been pushing me away

And this was the last straw, I guess

Because he was

He was

You know how dance is supposed to make you feel?

It was that for Rhein

I think he couldn't help but think of his mom

Sa lyrics

if you love me don't let go pa nga

Exactly

And this is someone who has never processed his loss

Or his feelings toward that loss

And Rhein

He was getting erratic and out of focus

Stinop yung music

I took his blindfold off

And he was crying

And looking me in the eyes and it broke my heart to see he was in pain

Parang he was the little kid na iniwan

And I didn't know what to do except to say I was there

And that I love him

And that made things worse

Because he stared at me and didn't say a thing

Then he left

Then he

He said dance partners lang kami

I have no right to tell him what he's feeling

And it's easier with Dein

Dapat sya daw

You know

Hindi pa ko pagod e

Malapit na pero hindi pa

I could've been more patient and more understanding kahit puro mixed signals at walang assurance

Because I understand his fear and trauma

Even though it's not an excuse to hurt me, maiintindihan ko pa

Pero na sabihan ako na dance partner nya lang ako

After everything I've given him

And him me, kahit pieces lang na tinanggap ko nang buo

And na dapat si Dein talaga kasi sayaw lang

Sige

Tanggap ko na

oh, babes

oh my god

ano na gagawin mo now?

I hope he's okay and I hope he heals

But hanggang don na lang

I'm done