Avoiding The End || ✓ [#1] FIUFAMNEXTGEN

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Chapter 19 || I want answers

;hiding your feelings doesn't make you stronger, it makes you stupid to think you're alone when there's people around who love you

"What's happened?" Stella's worried stare searches my face as she bursts through my door. "Micah just stormed out of here like a bat outta hell."

I'm still stood, frozen, staring at the deeds to the building Micah bought me, with unshed tears blurring my vision.

Stella takes the tops of my arms in her hands and looks me over. "Frey?"

The invisible thread snaps and that's when I double over into her arms and let my sobs free.

I should've known we'd end like this, with heartbreak and tears - I was too selfish to let it go, to let him go. As much as I tried to fight it, I couldn't, he broke down my walls and allowed me to fall in love with him, only for him to walk out without giving me a chance to explain.

How could he walk away from me so easily?

Somehow I ended up sitting in a puddle on the floor, crying into my best friends chest as she soothes my hair, murmuring words of comfort. I don't know how long we're like this, but once I've settled, I look down to the papers again.

"Frey, what's happened? Did he hurt you?"

I shake my head, rushing to wipe the rolling tears with the back of my hand. "Not in the way you think."

I tell Stella everything.

I mean, what's the harm in doing that now? There's no contract keeping my mouth shut, as far as Micah's concerned I broke it already.

From the offer, contract and fake dating to the falling in love, Jesse acting out and having my first sexual experience. I laid it bare, all the secrets I kept from the best people in my life, out there, in the open.

Judge as you may, Stella didn't.

"I'm sorry." I muttered, my voice sounding defeated, even to myself. "I didn't want to lie to you, and eventually I would've come clean, but in a way, I guess you could say I was embarrassed, or I don't know, insecure. I mean what kinda man like Micah would want someone like me."

Stella's frown is instant. "Don't you dare." she bites out. "You are worth so much more than you realise, Freya. I wish you could see in yourself what we all do, Micah included, regardless of the argument."

I shake my head while letting out a bitter laugh. "If that was true, he would've known I'd never do something like that to him. I wouldn't."

The tears being to sting again and Stella pulls me into her. "I know." she hums. "I know, babe."

So why didn't he? Did he really think that little of me? That I'd go behind his back, lie and cheat? We promised, and I keep mine.

"He's just a stupid man, he'll cool down and come to his senses, before you know it he'll be on his knees begging for you to forgive him."