*****
You never asked twice why she wanted to leave
never asked her what her plan was when she went away
all you did was yell
tell her she is stupid
you told her she wasn't worth fighting for
you left her when she needed you most
you called her all these names:
cunt
bitch
idiot
slut
told her she was worthless
lied to her about herself and her faith
you asked her
" how can you hold the hand of God when your other is wrapped around some guys dick in an alley?"
she never cheated on you.
she did love you.
she just didn't know how relationships work.
she didn't understand that she could have talked to you
*****
look at her.
see what you did
you destroyed what she had left
*****
You know telling a person who was once suicidal that you tried hanging yourself because they broke up with you can trigger their suicidal tendencies
well when you told her that, she started cutting again.
it had been seven months since she last took a sharp object to her skin
but after two days of cuts she stopped
she healed quickly
she let go of those pains
she forgave herself
because she knew you never would
she learned from her mistakes
she learned to be strong
she learned he wasn't any of these things:
cunt
bitch
idiot
slut
she learned she wasn't worthless
she knew her faith was strong
she knew she deserved more
*****
look at her
see what you did
she became stronger because you lied
*****
She has nightmares
nightmares of you
she knows she is better off forgetting you
her guilt is eating her up inside
her guilt is clawing at her chest ripping a way out
her guilt is taking over
her pain is falling through
her tears are spilling down
and its all because of you
you can't shut up
your voice is ringing out
she can't hear my voice
screaming to be let out
she is starving for a real life
she is chewing on what is left of the bones of the past
she is trying to get out
but she doesn't have an escape from those horrid words you speak
*****
look at her
see what you did
you changed her to be the woman I am today
*****
I have no words for you.
I refuse to pretend that you still matter.
You recked me.
You are just like my dad.
You broke your promises and I wont forgive again.
