I hope one day you understand.
Hope you will forgive my mistake.
Hope you will understand why I did what I had to do.
Doll, you need help.
You shouldn't be feeling the way you do.
It's unhealthy.
I did what I did so you can get better.
I did it all for you.
If you decide to hate me for thinking of myself when I left, okay.
But remember that I've had a hard time also.
And don't think I blame you for my cutting again, because trust me I don't.
I had let everything build up again. Our fight just put it over the top.
It's not your fault it's mine.
Even though I left, I do still care.
I'm not you you remember.
I'm not who anyone remembers.
But only a few people so far can deal with this me.
I'm sorry that I hurt you.
But if you really wanted to you coukd have gotten me to stay.
