Undying Devotion | Sebastian Sallow

Chapter 14

Y/N's Perspective

It has been two weeks since I feel asleep with Sebastian Sallow in the Undercroft. I really thought that was going to be the night that he would tell me he has feelings for me, but he didn't. I do not know why he wouldn't tell me. It is obvious he has feelings and I have not done a good job of hiding my feelings either.

We still spend every day together and the past two Wednesdays we have gone to Black Lake like he told me we would. We sit in the sun while he reads to me. We have been attached at the hip since I arrived at Hogwarts. I have heard rumors around Hogwarts about us dating, but I didn't really care.

I actually like the idea and it gave me a sense of ease. Sebastian is a very handsome man, perfectly chiseled and tanned complimented with freckles making him appear more innocent. I have seen how girls around the school look at him, but now that people think he is not available, the looks have ceased.

Since Sebastian and I spend every day together, I have left my journeys for discovering the secrets about ancient magic at night. I know if I tried during the day Sebastian would want to come with me and I could not risk his life like that. It is better for me to handle it alone.

My journeys often lead me to the Forbidden Forest, which is much more dangerous than I anticipated. I have battled spiders, Dugbogs, Mongrels, and poachers. In the moment it doesn't register in my mind that the poachers are people just like me, but after I see their lifeless bodies laying there, it hits me that I have killed someone. On one occasion, after killing a large camp of poachers, the gravity of what I did was too much to bare. I spent that night in Professor Fig's office shaking and crying as I try to suppress their screams and last breath echoing in my memory.

I did not want to tell Sebastian about what I have done. I am ashamed of it honestly, but I know I was doing the right thing. Ever since I saved Nora Treadwell from some poachers, they have put a target on my back. It is kill or be killed. That is what Professor Fig told me most nights to help console me.

Fig has become more and more like a father to me each day. He has stayed up with me all night when I cannot sleep to help me deal with all the stress and trauma of all my journeys. He will spend time reading to me to take my mind off of the death that I have brought. Fig is exactly what I imagined a father should be like.

He tried anything and everything to get my mind off of whatever I went through that night. I still chuckle when I think about a conversation we had one night about a week ago.

"So Y/n, I have heard some things about you and Sebastian Sallow" Fig smiles at me.

"Hm? Are you telling me the Professors actually listen to the gossip going around the school?"

"We do from time to time, but when I heard your name I had to listen because I do not want nasty things to be said about you. Much to my surprise, I heard that you and Mister Sallow are quite cozy with each other."

"Is that what you have heard?"

"Numerous times. Y/n, I know it might be weird to talk about romantic interests with a professor, but I do care about your wellbeing. I want you to know that if you want to talk about anything going on in your personal life, I am always here to listen and offer advice."

"I-I guess we have grown quite close since my arrival at Hogwarts. I... I thought he would possibly tell me how he felt about me at his birthday, but he never did. Maybe I was wrong about how he feels. Maybe he is just like that with his friends."