Your Eyes

you drew stars around my scars..

AKIRA'S POV-
I don't know how and why but i ended up in Dev's arms , crying the fuck out of my eyes and he didn't let go of me he held me so tight that for a few minutes it was hard to breathe.
He kept rubbing my back and saying sorry. Does he know? Who told him? How does he know?
I don't get out of this hug because if i do it's going to be really embarrassing, the thought of explaining my feelings to someone makes me cry even more , when i didn't stop he pulled me away and held my shoulders
Dev-"I'm sorry akira and this time i know what I'm sorry for"

He looks like he's gonna cry , i look down because I'm just too embarrassed that he knows.
Dev-"I'm sorry for crossing the boundary, I'm sorry for pushing your triggers I'm so sorry please don't hate me"
He breaks down in the last sentence

Dev is crying , dev is crying in front of me
A boy is crying in front of me.

From everything i know about men. Teenage boys don't cry in front of anyone but he did and it broke my heart i can't even imagine to what extent have i hurted him that he's crying in front of me.
Akira-"no please it's just- it's not that i- I'm just too attached"
I said it , i did
I said something

He sniffs and looks up
Dev-"can i fix it?"
Akira-"it can't be fixed"
I cry again , he hugs me and says
Dev-"i will fix it " he's crying too

It's really bad that he has to fix a heart he never broke.

The next 4 days dev didn't text me or called me i was in my room recalling everything he said , i waited for his text i checked my inbox i don't know like million times but no texts from him.
And it made me cry more than that plant did.
About the plant , he fixed it and kept it on my door step , he didn't even bother telling me about it
The plant was like normal again except it had a few visible glue marks . Looking at that plant just gave me bad memories about both of them.

Then it was school today , he didn't come in the bus i looked for him but he wasn't there. I saw him in class though , he didn't look at me and i didn't wanna look for him either but i just could not.

I thought he might come back by bus but again he didn't.

NEXT DAY-
When I was walking to my bus , i saw Dev he was talking to a boy he wasn't in the school uniform.
I looked clearly it was-
Shourya?
What the fuck was he doing here?

Offcourse i ran to them
Akira-"so you told him?"
Dev -"akira-"
Akira-"oh please save it"
Shourya-"akira i-"
Akira-"how could you? Out of everyone how could YOU??"
Dev -" he didn't tell me anything"
Akira -"really ? Then how do you know about Kabir or about the plant?"
Dev-"it just- it just i-"
Akira-"just just what?"
Shourya-"i just told him about the plant he doesn't know about Kabir"
Akira-"why the fuck are you even back?"
Shourya-"not Everything is about you-"

His voice started sounding like - no no no
Kabir-"not everything is about you akira!"

Akira-"Stop!"
Shourya-"why can't we have one normal conversation akira?"
Akira-"because nothing is normal anymore! I'm not normal, i don't even know the truth about what they did to me-"
Shourya-"Akira!"
He looked at dev

Dev-"if you guys don't want me here I'll gladly go"
Akira-"i don't want any of you here"

Dev walked away
Shourya-"Akira just give me a chance to explain , all these months I've- we've all suffered so much there isn't a single one of us who is completely happy right now, we will have to talk about the accident some day"
Akira-"Accident? So now you believe it was an accident, i guess I'm not a murderer anymore "
Shourya-"aku you can't blame yourself all the time , we are all equally responsible for what happened "

Akira-"and what about me , who's responsible for what happened with me? Shourya you said you'd be there but you-"
I can not help but break into tears , he holds me and hugs me
Shourya's hugs are pure nostalgic, they remind me of old times when I felt safe with him and of that night when i turned numb.

Akira-"i have to go" i pull back and run to my bus
This time Dev is on the bus , there is a lot i have to talk to him about but even more that i can't answer. But i listen to my gut and sit next to him

Akira-"hey"
Dev-"hey?" He chuckles
Akira-"look there's a lot you don't know and it's better if you Don't-"
Dev-"yeah offcourse, I'm just a side character in your life your story had began way before me"
Akira-"Dev you aren't just a chapter , you're my whole book but i just don't know how to bring up those horrific chapters back"
Dev-"i know there's something that i don't know of , but if it wasn't important for us i wouldn't be asking you"
Akira-"i just can't- i- Kabir was a very close to me-"
Dev-"like a boyfriend?"
Akira-"No-i don't know , we were inseparable our whole friend group Me , Kabir , shourya , Rose, Hemank , Mahira , stuti. We were all so happy and- we loved hanging out with eachother there was nothing else we'd do besides that. Even though Mahira was a lot older than us she'd still hang out with us , she's actually why i became friends with them in the first place.  Stuti was a guy but his name- we called him stuts and then about 1 and a half year ago something happened and everyone just left also because most of them were going to college , so i couldn't question no one."

Dev-"that's all? You're not gonna tell me what happened that night?"

I just looked at him , my eyes saying No he nodded and looked away for a minute.
Dev-"it's alright , but what do you plan on doing now?"
Akira-"when Kabir left , before that we had a lot going on apart from the group and him leaving without saying anything to me- i mean he met me before going but he said some really mean things and that night he was- just- disgusting. It hurted me a lot i couldn't leave my house for a year and i don't think it's still over."
Dev-"i think you should talk to him"
Akira-"what? No. You don't understand it's not that easy , it's- i can't it's Kabir and just the thought of seeing him again makes my breath stop , i can't breathe i can't see i become numb it's just like that night -"

I stopped mid sentence, because i can't speak more. I just can't.

Dev-"akira , he's coming."
What? no.
Akira-"what?"
Tears start coming to my eyes , they're almost falling out but i control.

Dev-"he's coming home , next week"
Akira-"i- I'll stay at home "
Dev-"No akira! You have to let it all out you can't just stay at home. You've been doing that for past two years now. It's time you confront him."
Akira-"I'll see."

We got of the Bus and started walking home , no body said a word till i reached my door step.
Dev -"bye riri think about what i said, it's important." He smiles
His smile somehow makes this a little better.
I smile back.

5 DAYS LATER

OTP

Dev-"hello?"
Akira-"I'll do it"

Thankyou for reading ilu≤3