AT MY LOWEST ( Ongoing )

PROLOGUE

*Flashback*

I walked into a convenience store and went straight to the ice cream section. I grabbed one and proceeded to the counter to pay. I stepped out and walked to a nearby park. I sat on the bench and opened the ice cream I bought. I looked at my surroundings while eating. It was already late, and there were only a few people, so the atmosphere was very quiet and calm. I hope I feel this calm, just like the atmosphere right now.

I stopped myself from expressing any emotion when I suddenly felt a heavy heart from what I was thinking. I was unable to stop the tears that were already streaming from my eyes. I wiped my tears away and continued to eat my ice cream.

"Fvck. Even ice cream can't take away the stress and pain I'm feeling right now.", I mumbled and wiped away the tears that continued to fall from my eyes.

I let myself to cry out all of my anguish and pain. The ice cream has melted in my hand, leaving my hand sticky as well. I disregarded it and kept sobbing.

"Nakakaiyak na pala ang pagkain ng ice cream ngayon.", I abruptly stopped crying when I heard a voice. As I looked down, I quickly wiped away my tears.

"Here.", the boy said, and handed me a handkerchief. I didn't take it because I don't need it, and I don't even know him.

I heard him take a deep breath. He lifted my head and started to wiped my tears, which caught me off guard. I just let him do what he was doing. I stared at his face. He was seriously wiping my face, but you could see empathy and worry in his eyes. He took a tissue from his backpack and wiped my greasy hand.

"It's unsafe to walk around at this hour. Bakit nasa labas ka pa?", he said after wiping my hand and stared at me intently.

"Anong ba'ng pake mo?", bakit ba siya namamakialam. Daddy ko ba siya? He acts like he's my dad.

He looked down and laughed at my response to him. May nakakatawa ba sa sinabi ko. Mukha ba akong nagpapatawa? Narinig ko siyang may binulong sa sarili niya pero hindi ko narinig kung ano 'yon. Hindi ko nalang pinansin baka nababaliw lang siya.

Umupo siya sa tabi ko. Sinusundan ko lang ng tingin lahat ng ginagawa niya. Mamaya may masamang balak pala 'to kaya kailangan ko maging aktibo.

"Hindi kita kilala at hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang pinagdadaanan mo ngayon.", I just remained silent.

"It must be so hard and painful for you to cry here alone in the middle of the night.", bigla akong nakaramdam muli ng kirot sa dibdib ko.

Bakit gano'n. Bakit kailangan ko maranasan lahat ng ito. Bakit kailangan ko masaktan ng sobra. Bakit feeling ko hindi ko deserve sumaya. Ang sakit sakit na pero hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kayang sumuko.

I don't want to cry in front of other people, but my eyes began to cry up once more, and I was unable to stop them. My eyes can't really lie. It can't conceal all of my emotions. I'm such a crybaby.

Naramdaman ko ang paglingon niya sa side ko. Hinarap niya ako sa kanya at niyakap ako. I don't know why, but ever since he held me, I've felt at ease and protected.

Sinubsob ko ang sarili ko sa kanya at umiyak nang umiyak. Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam na mayroong tao na nand'yan sa tabi mo at hahayaan ka na ilabas lahat ng emosyon mo. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman 'to, kasi ngayon lang mayroong tao na nand'yan at handang sandalan ko habang umiiyak.