I heard a knock making me look up to see manik leaning on my door, I put the rock and letter back in my purse.
"Come in" I whisper
He came in and sat beside me on the bed
"Are you sure you want to do this"he asked
"Yeah but even after marriage I am going to be in my room, I am not staying in your room. I am not gonna be your wife in real life, its jsut on paper and for the outside world" I explained
He nodded in agreement
"We don't have to get married right away, we can get engaged and then we don't have to rush into things"
"Lets be clear about something, I am not interested in you at fucking all, but m reputation is in line as well so I have to do this but do not expect anything from me, absolutely nothing"
"Stop acting so just stop nandini, you act like I am a stranger and you don't know me at all"
"BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW YOU MR MALHOTRA AND NOR AM I INTERESTED IN GETTING TO KNOW YOU SO FUCK OFF MANIK" I screamed in his face
"Quit yelling at me, I didn't force you to do this, you agreed by yourself so don't blame me. If you don't want to you don't have to marry me okay" he said getting pissed off
"Ya well things would have been so much better if you didn't come and talk to me"
"You know nandini every time, every fucking time I think I should take a step forward and apologize for a mistake of mine, you make it so hard for me to not speak my heart out. There was a time where I could talk to you but now you"
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM NOW" I screamed on top of my voice
He didn't say anything else, he just walked out of there making me shove my face in a pillow crying. Everything from the past just shot up back up, eveyrhting I kept hidden inside was coming undone
I screamed and cried shoving my face in that pillow for hours until I couldn't anymore, I felt sick and shitty and sick, did I mention sick, yes.
I also felt shitty for screaming at manik, he isn't at fault at all, neither one of us are actually but I blamed him which he never did, he never blamed me when he easily could have instead he asked if I was okay.
When I got a hang of myself I freshened up and walked to Manik's room, I took a huge breath and knocked, a timid little come in came from inside
I opened the doors to see him sitting on his bed, his phone on his chest and his laptop on his lap
"Get them to the address I gave you in the next 2 hours" he says making me realize he was on the phone with someone
I walked inside and sat on his bed looking at him
"Jsut to make sure its a size 5 and a size 11 right" the voice on the phone said
"Yes"
"Sounds good, we will have it delivered right away after alterations you wanted"
"Thanks" manik said cutting the call
once he was off the call, I took a deep breath.
"Im sorry for screaming at you, I am just"
"Overwhelmed, I know" he said
i nodded not being surprised how he knows, because he always knows, well he always did.
"Can I have your address" he asks
"My address" I asked
"That's what I said"
"Mhmm why" I asked
"Though this engagement isn't what we want, I still need uncle and aunty's permission" he said
My heart flutters at the fact that he cares to ask for permission but it hurts too.
"It isn't needed" I whisper
"It is, nandini what's your address" he asked again
"Manik trust me it is not needed at all"
"You might thing so but I know uncle always wanted someone nice for you, I may not be the person he wanted for you but it's his right to at least see whom his daughter is marrying"
I teared up hearing this because my father always told me something I held very close to my heart in terms of manik.
"You can't ask him" I whispered
"Why not?" He asks
"You just can't, I mhm you can ask my mother if you'd like not that it would matter but if you are so keen on it you can" I said
"Why not uncle" he asks
"Becasue you jsut can't"
"He might be angry I get that but"
"He is dead manik, he isn't alive, you cannot ask him"I burst out
"What" he gasps
I looked at him to see tears in his eyes, his jaw was hardened, his hands curled inside in a fist, letting me know he was trying so hard not to cry.
"Your mother" he asks
"I can take you there" I said wiping my tears
he nodded taking a huge breath, he got up from the bed and put his laptop away
"Get ready, we can go to your mums and then dad's house" he said
I nodded walking to my room, I grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans and a white top. I put my hair in a ponytail and put on sneakers.
When I got down to the living room, manik stood there in black jeans and a white shirt as well which was ironic cause we were matching unknowingly
"Dude you gotta change" I said
"Why" he asked looking up
He stared at me and then shook his head
"Whatever, just lets go" he said
"But we are matching" I whine
"Glad to see you have good taste in something" he says sarcastically making me glare at him
"Are you dissing me" I asked following him out of the house
"Maybe" he said
"I will pull your hair out if you diss me like that" I said
"You can't" he siad opening the door of the passenger seat for me
"Why not" I asked getting in
He got in the drivers seat and buckled up
"Because you are my fiancé and we don't want people seeing you be violent with your fiancé"
"Shut up asshole" I said switching the radio channels until I found a good one
"Address mrs fiancé" he says
I gave him the address being a bit scared about his reaction to the house becasue it wasn't the best looking compared to his mansion
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Lost Without You
RomansaHe is the owner of the biggest architecture company in India. She is hired as his personal assistant. He has a past she doesn't know just like she has demons of her own he isn't aware of. They were friends when they were kids, but when they met as...
