𝐖𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞| 𝐺𝑜𝑗𝑜 𝑆𝑎𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑢 𝑥 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟

𝐗𝐈𝐕

Days had passed and I haven't spoken to y/n since that night. Seems like nobody knows who I am yet, but it's just a matter of time before they come to cut my head off.

I've been trying to stay focused on my work, to hang around more with Yuji and the other kids, and I'm trying to stay close to them for my mission. I can't let my mind be distracted from what I came here to do, but I can't stop thinking about y/n that night.

A traitor, I was reminiscing, while I was sitting on the porch facing the half dome garden I was working on, I guess no matter what I do, I'm always going to be a traitor in people's eyes.

"Why are you here caught up in thought?", the Queen steps out and revealed herself to me, she was holding two bottles of beer in both her hands, "I was hoping you are free".

"Seems like I am, my Queen", I said to her and she sat down on the porch next to me, then gave me the bottles to open them, "I haven't seen you around much these days".

"I can say the same about you, child. Are you hiding from me?", she smiled and took the freshly opened bottle from my hand.

"I would never dare", I smiled back at her and opened my beer too.

We sat in silence for a little while and we raised out bottles drinking from the liquid. This beer they been having here is trash, but it has a kick to it. Kicks you in the knees, but in a nice way.

"How come every time I see you you are always sad and thinking?", her majesty asked me, "when will I see you happy for a change?".

"First I gotta find something to make me happy and then I'll come to you", I said to her.

"You are so depressing, you are killing the mood of the nice afternoon. I'm sick of it".

"Forgive me, my Queen. I'll try to cheer up".

For a moment I really smiled at her. I can't say I'm not proud to be on my place right now. Who else can say they been drinking beers with the Queen herself? But then my mind reminded me of Y/n and my mood got down again.

"Okay, what is troubling you, child?", she finally asked. I thought she won't dare.

"Are you allowed to speak to your servants in such casual manner, your majesty?", I asked.

"I am the Queen, I am allowed to do whatever my heart pleases", she spoke to me in such a serious tone, she wasn't playing around, "plus, I already told you that you are very dear to my heart. I don't drink beers with everyone".

"Careful, my Queen, or I might get cocky", I joked and a smirk popped on my face.

"Better not make me regret it", she warned me.

We laughed it off, then we sip off our bees yet again. It felt nice to have someone to talk to, even tho I'm not allowed to. The Queen is like the grandmother that I've never had. Must be nice to know there's someone to help you.

"I told y/n my secret", I said straight away.

"Did she flinched?", the Queen asked.

"No", I looked down, "not too much at least".

"But she views you like a traitor, didn't she?".

"She told you, huh?".

"No, we do not speak to each other. She's too much like her father for my likening and I tend to avoid her for now", she explained, "but I know my grand baby. She must definitely thinks of you as something low".

"You're helping a lot, just so you know".

"That is the truth, child. Unfortunately y/n has grew up without a mother. She doesn't know anything other than her father's sick ideas of life and what's good, and what's not. Don't blame her for not understanding your pain".

"She's not obligated to".

The Queen took a minute and then turns to face me, then placed her arm on my shoulder and let out a sigh.

"A lover is someone, who is supposed to be there for you no matter what you did, or who you are", she began explaining, "you two are too young and you both grew up around violence, fear and battles. I don't expect you to understand now, but one day you'll see it".

"You're right, I don't understand", I said.

"You bozo", the Queen rolled her eyes, "I'm trying to say that you should forgive her. She is just as confused as you, trust me".

"Why should I forgive her and be with someone, who sees only the worst of me?", I stood up and turned to face her majesty, "how come you accepted me and she can?".

"Because I grew up in different environment and I know how love feels like, while y/n grew up with the sick treatment of her father! She does not know how love feels. Both of you don't, but you know you love each other".

"Let's not exaggerate things. What me and y/n have is not love! I might not know both of these feelings, but I'm sure this isn't love".

Granny Queen looked at me with those eyes that said: 'and you believe that? Cause I don't' and turned her head to the side. Not going to lie, I didn't know what I was feeling. I didn't hate her, I didn't loved her either, but I was drawn to her like moth to flame.

The way she was so gentle with me, the way she touched me, the passion behind those kisses. It made me excited. But the way she treated me, the way she looked at me, when I told her I was a traitor, I can't forget it.

"You're stressing out a little bit too much for my likening, child", granny spoke to me again and stood up, "life isn't suppose to be this complicated, especially for someone at your age. So try not worrying too much, okay?".

"It's easy for you to say, granny, all you have to do all day is wave and smile", I said. Her majesty looked at me with the most serious expression I've ever seen from her.

"Don't judge someone's life based on what you are seeing. You don't know how hard it could be, until you are in their shoes", she said, "I'm sure one day you might actually grow up and grow the brain that you're missing, but right now how about calming down and correcting your wrongs, huh?".

"Was that an insult?".

"Gosh, you really are stupid", she rolled her eyes and gave me her beer, "go and fix what you broke, or I would never drink with you again".

"What a threat", I said sarcastically.

"It might've been worse, so don't waste your time and go to my grand baby".

"It was a pleasure being insulted by you, my Queen, I promise when I get to your age I'll do the same", I smiled at her.

"If you get to my age", she corrected me, "not everyone can be as feisty and stubborn to beat death for so long like me".

"Have I ever told you how fun you are?".

"Like I don't already know that", she smiled at me, tapped my shoulder and turns her back at me to walk back in the palace.

She did it again. Came up, gave me beer, knocked some senses into my head and left like she was never here. I don't know, if I should be thankful for having such an amazing Queen, I'd be offended that she thinks so poor of me?

UNEDITED