𝐖𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞| 𝐺𝑜𝑗𝑜 𝑆𝑎𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑢 𝑥 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟

𝐗𝐈

"You have two minutes", y/n said to me and sat down on a small chair that the Queen left, when she was here earlier.

I knew it was my only chance to show her that I care about her deeply. So I just let my heart speak for itself. I let all my emotions out and maybe this was my biggest mistake ever.

"I wasn't truthful with you", I began saying and I lowered my head, "I kept my feelings in check, because I was scared I might get caught and get killed. And I was also afraid what you might think of me, if you find out".

"You're scaring me now...", she pulls back from me and looks at me with fear in her eyes.

"I promise you don't have anything to be scared off. I would never hurt you", I look up and our eyes met once again, "I am not an orphan, I grew up in the North. And I have a full name, it's Gojo Satoru. I'm 28 years old and I've been part of the North army for 10 years. I recently escaped the army in order to save myself from the war. I came here looking for a place to stay and to continue with my new life, but then your father caught me and took me under his roof. I was so scared that someone might find out that I'm a traitor. So I kept it low-key and avoided you on purpose...I'm sorry".

On her face was pure horror. Y/n was staring at me with eyes full of disgust, fear and hatred at the same time. She stood up on her feet and made a step back. I made a step towards her, but she pushed me back.

"You are a lier!", she said to me, "but worse than that-you are an enemy!".

"Y/n, please listen..", I tried to ration with her, but she didn't wanna listen.

"I don't have anything to say to you! You are not the man I thought you were".

"I still am the one you like. I still am the man, who thought you how to fight, I am still the man, who dance with you today", I placed my hand on my heart, "and I am still the man, who is not sure what he feels, but I do know I want to try and figure it out with you!".

"How should I know you're not lying to me in order to take over our country? How should I know you're not a spy of the North?", she asked all these questions and I realised I can't give her any guarantees that I'm not a spy.

"I can't prove it, you have to trust me".

"Yeah, right! So you can kill me, when I'm most vulnerable and weak. I know better. I'm not a fool you are used to see", she pushed me once again, but this time I took her by her wrists and pulled her closer to me. I wrapped my arms around her and i hugged her tightly, "let go of me, you stupid, foolish man!".

"Go on! Report me to your father. Let him kill me, or bring me back to my country. Do it, if you feel like I'm not worthy of your trust. But I am ready to tell you all about me...if you are willing to listen".

For a moment there was hesitation on y/n's face. I knew she won't put her trust into me so easily. I stood there in front of her, my whole body relaxed, my eyes on hers, my arms open ready to surrender. She finally calmed down after a few minutes and sat back down. She gave me a look, which was a sign for me to start talking.

I sat there in front of her on the porch and I look down at my feet. I held my hands together thinking what she'll think of me.

"I was born on December 7th 1944 on a small village in the North. My father was selected for the army only year later", I began telling her the whole story, "I grew up with only my mom and I got letters from my father from time to time. Mostly on my birthdays. And one day, when I was just small child, my father was killed during a battle. I grew up without a chance to meet my father".

"Gojo...", y/n placed her hands over her mouth and stared at me in fear and sadness.

"The education we had in school was really bad, since we couldn't afford to go to a nice school, where someone might actually teach us something", I continued, "and on my graduation day...I found out I was selected for the army too. I had no choice, but to go and fight for what I have left-my mother. And I spent 10 years of my life, those years that all young adults dream of..killing people. Then one day....I finally had enough. I couldn't do it anymore, I had to run away. So that's what I did. I came all the way here to start a new life as a new me....and I'm glad I met you here".

I can't escape my past. I did what I had to do and I can't hide who I am from the woman I like. At that moment I didn't care, if she's going to report me to her father. I didn't care about the war and if I'm a traitor, or not. The only thing I wanted was for y/n to believe me that I won't hurt her in any way...and my past, all the blood I have on my hands, is long gone.

"You told me your whole story...", she made a pause, then she looked down, "and I felt like I was about to throw up. How could someone force a child to fight and to kill".

"I know...", I let out a sigh, "that's why I got so mad about Yuji and the other kids. I don't want them to end up like me..or worse...dead".

Y/n immediately stood up and threw herself on me. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me so tightly. I wrapped my arms around her too and I let her cry on my shoulder. I let her cry the tears, that I never had the courage to cry. I let her feel the pain that I was carrying around for so long. I let her just be there for me.

"I promise you, I won't allow them to die", she whispered next to my ear, "I promise you I'll give them a better future, love and education, I'll give them life".

"It's impossible, even if you try", I said.

"Why do you think that?".

"As long as your father is alive...we can't stop this madness. We can't stop the war".

"So what do you suggest?", she finally pulls away to look at my face.

"I'm sorry that I have to tell you this", I look straight into her eyes Andy face froze into the most serious expression ever, "but I have to kill your father in order to save million lives".

UNEDITED