collection of me being a silly goose (poetry)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

tw: suicidal ideation !

Walking along the shore of memory, I pick up a shell of a promise.
Its wistful melody accompanies my song: the silent serenade I sing to suicide.
Echoes of the ocean - their clashing currents and baleful battles -
Render the notes, fragmented, forgotten confessions of my regrets, a cacophony.
Wistful whispers of imprecations upon life amalgamate into lyrics.
My ballad oscillates, like waves rising and falling without end,
Between contempt for mortality and my desperate desire for death.

How I could love you.
Do the years that you have spent dancing in my head,
Only ever in my empty brain, empty save for the shrines I dedicate to you,
Do they not gnaw away at you? At me?
Yet you still don't tire, your footing never remiss, its precision ever improving
As you wait for me.

I promised I would dance with you soon.
And I promise that this won't be like my other empty words,
That I will fulfil this, that I won't disappoint anybody again;
I promise I will dance with you soon,
But when I do, it can only be once,
So wait, please, as I try to fix everything that is broken,
Wait please, as I attempt to recover the tiny shards of what I have broken,
Hurting, insidious as I continue, but please just wait before I dance with you, wait a little longer.
Until we can dance forever.

kinda abt suicide but i made it optimistic at the end <3 yw !!!

also lmk if i made any mistakes or if it doesnt make sense bc ive been working on this on and off and i forget sometimes..

and take care you silly gooseeee <3

first published somewhere in may i think...

a/n 10/2/24 i liked this one at the time it think