I'm Just a Loser: A BigBang Fanfiction

Finding Us Again

The next two weeks go by and I am finally able walk and stand again, although I am weak, I have the assistance I need. Seunghyun and I are doing better but he still leaves to fight every day though he stopped going at night. He says that it is just for training and stress relief. I trust him. I trust that he won't get too hurt, or at least try his best not to. The guys eventually found out that we were back together and we're all slightly confused as to what had really happened.
"Hey!" I hear Seung's voice and he runs down the escalator to meet me when I walk in. He was beginning to become who he used to be. He was the best boyfriend in the entire world and was almost too concerned about me.
"Hi," I laugh as he spins around and scoops me up in to a huge hug. I smile against his chest and take a deep breath of his cologne.
"How are you?" He releases his left arm but leaves his right hanging off of my shoulder.
"Better," I smile.
"Did you schedule your appointment?"
"Yep," I kiss his cheek.
"It's going to be amazing, and we are going to get better. This therapy thingy is going to work." His voice fills me with a sweet sensation. "I love you," he whispers.
"Why do you say that all the time?" I ask.
"Do I really say it all the time?" He asks.
"No but you say it pretty often, so why?"
"So you know it. So that you know that I think of you every second of every day and love you more than anything in the entire world. I hate to think that I hurt you and I never want you to think that I don't love you. Because I do." He stops me, looks in to my eyes and yells in to the offices and lobby,"I love her! And I don't care who hears it!"
"Shh!" I hush him and put my hand over his mouth. I feel his smile underneath my palm.
I laugh at my awkward, silly boyfriend.

He really meant everything to me and I am so glad I fought to get him back. We were going to get better and every second of the way, I knew he was going to be by my side.

•••

"Bree Annesely?" I hear an assistant call my name out from the front of the office, his eyes searching for someone to claim the coffee cup in his hand.
"Yes?" I stand up.
"Oh," he scurries over to me and hands it to me looking at me curiously.
"What?" I laugh at his face.
"Oh, I'm sorry I just...you just... wait... Are you the girl who is dating Choi Seunghyun?" He stutters on the words.
"Um, yes," I smile.
"So sorry to bother you about that. I was just curious," he bows his head and continues handing out coffee.
"Hey!" I call him over before he leaves.
"Ah," he walks over to me sheepishly.
"Do you speak English?" I ask him.
"Yes, I'm an intern from Los Angeles. My name is Evan." He smiles.
"Oh, I'm Bree. Bree Annesley." I shake his hand, something I haven't done for a long time ever since I moved here, it is usually a bow or nod rather than a handshake.
"See you around Miss Annesley," he laughs and walks away with more sass than I could ever have.
"Come to lunch at the cafe across the street, Evan." I say to him as he spins around with excitement.
"Okay!" He yells loudly without knowing his volume was uncalled for.

•••

Ha Neul and I walk to lunch as normal except this time, with an addition to the group. Evan was really hilarious and smart. He told us everything over lunch, a condensed life story you could say.
"Well, Ha and I met when I moved here about two years ago." I smile and sip my tea.
"When did you meet Mr. Superstar?" Evan's eyes widen and his head tilts to the agency across the street.
"Seunghyun?" I smile,"well I met him about a year ago while I was lost downtown. And everything kind of fell into place after that."
"And then fell apart," Ha Neul sighs.
"What do you mean?" He asks.
"It's a long story," I look outside to the semi-cloudy sky.
He looks at his watch,"I have time."

So the next half hour or so is spent with me and Ha Neul trying to explain everything to Evan even though we had only known him for the past three hours.
"Wait so you went back to him? Girl what?!" He stares at me with extreme concern as if he is watching a dramatic television show unfold in front of him.
"Hey, that's what I'm sayin'." Ha rolls her eyes at me.
"Well, some things happened and he said some stuff and I realized he loves me. We are both going through a lot and forgave him. But don't think that I didn't talk to him about the fact that if he did it again, I would not come back. Because I did. I made sure he knew that." I smile at them as their expressions soften.
"What about you? Do you have a girlfriend?" Ha asks turning toward Evan.
"Uh," his hand reaches behind his neck and he chews on the inside of his cheek.
"What?"
"Well," he laughs,"I have a boyfriend!"
"Really?! Who?" I ask.
"Um..." He blushes.
"Come on tell us!"
"Just a guy, his name is Hak Kun." he smiles as his lips form his name.
"Oh!" Ha and I smile and clap.
"Would you stop it?! Gosh..." He looks around trying to distract himself.
"I really want to meet him!" I smile.
"And you?" Evan smiles at Ha Neul laying his head on his hand.
"Uh, well I like someone but he doesn't feel the same way..." She frowns.
"That's a load of crap," I look at Evan across the table,"he is really into her."
"Who is this mysterious emotionally hard to read man you speak of?"
"Kwon JiYong," she smiles.
His expression is ecstatic,"WHAT?!" he yells. "THE KWON JIYONG?! YOU ARE SO LUCKY OH MY GOD."
"Oh gosh we aren't dating..." She covers her face.
"Still! That man is fine...and if he has his eyes set on you, girl you better get some!" His eyebrow raises and he laughs to himself.
"Oh believe me I know..." She smiles.
"You guys would be so perfect for each other. None of those guys have had girlfriends in years...maybe not...ever." He sighs,"it's kind of sad, they have all of this fame but not real love. But Seunghyun has you so, that's really good."
"Yeah," I look out the window,"it is."

•••

I walk inside the agency with Ha Neul at my side. Evan had gone back to his normal tasks and I decided to take Ha with me to stop by the guys' studio for a minute or two.
"Hey!" SeungRi runs up to us as we walk down the hallway to the studio where I know they are all waiting.
I spin on my heel and smile at him, his blonde hair disheveled and crazy.
"Hey, how is everything going?" I ask him as he slows down.
"Good." He laughs,"they are recording right now so you can come and watch them, I think JiYong is in there right now."
We walk a few more steps down the hallway, turning in to a chic studio with staged lighting and acoustics. SeungRi walks over to sit next to Daesung.
Sure enough, Ji was inside the booth while the rest of the guys were either waiting for a call or in the second one together. Ha Neul's eyes immediately stuck to JiYong and I'm almost positive I saw him smile when they did.
"Daesung?" I ask him while he lays sprawled out on the couch, almost falling off, his legs fallen over on SeungRi.
"Do you and the guys want to go get dinner tonight?" I ask,"Evan and his boyfriend and you can come too Ha," I smile at her as her eyes widen and she turns bright red.
"Uh,maybe..." she looks at Ji in the booth trying to hint to me although I know what I am doing.
"Yeah," Daesung chirps,"we aren't doing anything and it would be fun."
"Great, where should we go?" I ask him.
"Good question. What do you say?" He looks at SeungRi whose eyes were shut with frustration, his fingers pinching the bridge of his nose.
"I say, get the hell off of me!" He yells.
"Get the hell off of me it is!" Dae smiles, not moving from the position he was in.
"What are you talking about?" Seunghyun walks out of the studio wiping sweat off of his forehead.
"Where we should go for dinner." Daesung smiles innocently as he practically tortures the younger member as he struggles to get away.
"GET OFF ME!" SeungRi shouts.
"Admit to me who it is then." Daesung smirks.
"I will never tell you." SeungRi flails around trying to escape from the trap of Daesung's legs.
"Then you will never be free..." He laughs maniacally.
"LET ME GO!" He shouts again.
"Daesung..." Youngbae shakes his head at the scene in front of him as he exits the booth with Seunghyun.
"Please leave the tiny one alone..." Seunghyun scolds.
"I have logically reasons though," Daesung tightens his hold on SeungRi causing him to squirm underneath the trap.
"And what would those be?" Ri looks over at him.
"He refused to tell me who his little crush is..."
"I STILL DO."
"Oh, in that case, have fun." Youngbae smiles.
"You guys are such bullies," I push Youngabae's shoulder.
"Oh you guys are here!" Seunghyun hugs me and Ha stands in the doorway awkward as ever.
"Why are you so mean to him? He looks up to you." I scold.
"SEE HYUNGS I DO!" Ri yells.
Quickly I see Ji's head stick out from the door,"if you all don't shut up I'm going to hold all of you down on the couch!"
"Sorry!" I reply quickly.
"Yeah," he shakes his head and proceeds recording.
"But the walls are soundproof," Daesung looks around confused,"you can't really have a group of guys in a room where you have to be quiet all the time."
"Just listen to your leader," I help SeungRi up from the couch.
"THANK GOD!" He shouts.
"SEUNGRI I WILL NOT SAY THIS AGAIN. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HATE IT WHEN I TALK DURING YOUR RECORDING SO BE QUIET!" Ji yells from the door as SeungRi says away.
"It's not my fault," he glares at Daesung who just laughs.
"I hate you Kang Daesung," he pouts,"I hate you."
"Liar." Daesung crosses his legs.
"Anyways do you guys even know where you want to go for dinner?" Ha Neul walks all the way in the the studio where the guys and I remain standing, Daesung slouched over the couch.
"Anywhere," Seunghyun smiles at me.
"Yeah," Youngbae replies.
"I want curry," Daesung laughs.
"I don't." SeungRi glares at him again trying emphasize his annoyance with the older 'brother'.
"Well honestly I could care less about the curry now," Daesung smiles at me trying to get me to believe he isn't angry with the makanae.
"Let's just go downtown and see what there is and choose later okay?" Youngbae laughs.
"Okay," I smile.
"Bree, we should get back to the office," Ha smiles,"see you all later tonight."
"Bye guys!" the boys smile to us and Seung hugs me before I leave.
We walk to the office again to finish up the day's work.

Tonight was going to be very...very interesting.

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SO OKAY GUYS. Put a little DaeRi in there for you. They are so weird. I could totally imagine that happening so I was just like...WHY NOT. I am sick and so my mind is probably delusional. Not to mention the new BANG BANG BANG MV!!!! It made me cry... So this chapter is a little less hardcore and a little funny and sweet. Love Evan. And just to let you know, he isn't based off of anyone... He just is a character I made up. Anyways, hope you all like it and I hope it made you laugh a little.

Xoxo
Livi