my boyfriend is my bully

chapter 35

I walk around school, trying to find derek. I stop outside his classroom door. I look in the window. He makes eye contact with me.

He furrows his brows, standing up. He grabs his bag and walks out. "What's wrong?" He hugs me. I wipe my eyes and hug him back.

"A guy has been saying stuff to me.. I walked out of class because I started crying" i sniffle. "What the hell.. who?" He asks.

I hold his hand. He follows me as I take him to my class. I point through the window at a guy.

"No, not here.. you'll get into trouble" I say, stopping him as he goes to walk into the classroom. "Fine" he stops.

"Come on" he grabs my arm. He pulls me along. "Derek, please don't take your anger out on me.. I didn't do anything" I say. "I'm not, baby.. we're gonna go and sit outside together so I can make you feel better" He says. "Oh" I smile.

We sit outside on the field. He has his arms wrapped around me and I'm cuddled into him, sat between his legs. We haven't been talking, we've just been sat here in peaceful silence.

"Babe" he whispers. I look back at him. "You need to start sticking up for yourself" he puts his hand on my cheek. "I'm sorry" I push my face into his chest.

"Don't apologise to me.. I just don't want people to get away with hurting you" he pulls me onto his lap.

"You did.." I say. "I know I did" he sighs. "And now you're my boyfriend" I say. "Not everyone who bullies you can be your boyfriends" he chuckles. I giggle.

"Why not?" I ask. "Because I'll start bullying you again" he says. I glare at him. He smiles. I chuckle.

"Would you bully me again if we broke up?" I ask seriously. "No, I lo- like you too much now" he says. I giggle. "I like you too derek" I look into his eyes. He smiles. I kiss him.

"Why on earth did you give me a chance in the first place?" He asks. "Because.. I found you hot" I say truthfully. He chuckles.

"And once you started being nice to me, I saw how much of an amazing guy you could actually be" I say. "I am sorry for being so horrible to you" he whispers. "I know" I kiss his lips.

"It literally makes me want to kill them when you tell me someone else made you upset.. I can't believe I used to be that person" he says. "Well, at least now I have you to defend me" I say. He smiles small.

"We should have a sleepover tonight" he says. "Oh, again?" I ask. "Not if you don't want to" he furrows his brows. "I don't want to have sex with you again" I say. "Oh.. um" he looks at me confused.

"Did I do something wrong?" He asks. "No" I say. "So why then?" He asks. "Because I'm scared" I say. "Of me!?" He exclaims. "No.. but I'm scared you're using me for sex" I say.

"For fucks sake" he gently pulls me closer. I straddle him. "I'm not using you, meredith.. I love having sex with you, but I'm not using you for it.. I like your company aswell.. I like you as a person" he says.

"Do you like having sex with me?" He asks. I nod. "Why?" He asks. "It makes me feel good" I say shyly. He smiles. "That doesn't mean you're using me, does it?" He asks. I shake my head.

"We don't have to have sex.. that's not what I even meant when I said sleepover" he says. "It wasn't?" I ask. "I just want to spend the night with you.. either way" he says. I smile.

"I'm sorry" I say. "Thats okay" he smiles. "I'm still really nervous" I say. "I know you are" he puts his hands on my cheeks. He kisses me.