The Bucket List [Harry Styles fanfic]

Chapter 6

1. Cliff diving

2. Go to London

3. Get a pet dog

4. Have an excuse to scream YOLO

5. meet someone famous **COMPLETE**

6. learn to play an instrument

7. have a flashmob

8. go to an amusement park

9. write a song

10. Fall in love

"Go away," I mumbled as I struggled to not let the person wake me up.

"Honey you need to wake up so you can get ready for school," my mom said as she gently poked my side to wake me up. I was laying on the hospital bed with her since she still wasn't cleared to leave the bed since the incident. I was still wearing the clothes from the concert and I needed a shower badly but I didn't want to leave my mom again.

"Mom I can't leave you again," I said as I continued laying next to her refusing to move. 

"Honey you need to go you can come back later. I 'm in capable hands here in the hospital and plus you have to come back later because you have another doctors appointment to check on the growth of you tumor." She said as she lightly pushed me up and out of the bed 

**Thump** "OUCH mom!" I said as I got up rubbing the spot on my back that I landed on. "What was that for?" My mom was now laughing at me and now I couldn't help myself but laugh to. 

"No seriously honey go home get ready and go. to. school." She said trying to be strict but she was still laughing at me from when she pushed me off. 

"Fine," I said grumbling grabbing my stuff to leave. "Only because you told me to. I love you mom."

"Love you too sweety." She kissed me on the cheek and I left to head for home. The ride home was boring except when Kiss You came on the radio that made me a little happier. My mind was still stuck on Harry. How he kissed my cheek and said that he wanted to see me again. I think I was starting to fall hard, but it was hard to like him because I only had what like 48 more weeks to live? That may seem like a lot but when your talking about love and the rest of your life it's nothing.

I pulled into my driveway my thoughts racing thinking about Harry, my mom, and the cancer that was slowly ending my life. They even stopped chemo because they said that it was pointless. I checked the clock 6:30 I had and hour to get ready so I decided to take the well needed shower. I let the water cascade over me as I rinsed my hair and washed my body. Now satisfied that I was clean I threw on a robe and headed to find and outfit to wear. I settled on some pink skinny jeans a white long sleeve shirt and a black infinity scarf. I put on some light makeup and satisfied that I looked fine headed out the door. 

It was 7:15 now. Not bad I could get to school early and talk to Anna about everything that happened. We already fangirled about it last night but I wanted to know more about her and Nialler. 

"ANNA!" I yelled as I saw my best friend walking down the hallway. We walked together to our classes as we talked about last night. Turns out that she got Niall's number and he asked her to join him for coffee. I was really happy for her but I couldn't help but feel jealous that Harry never sent that to me. I know that we weren't dating but he did say that he wanted to see me again. Did he really want to or was he just being nice?

The day went by in a blur I don't remember much about any of the classes or what the teachers talked about. All I was thinking about was the curly haired boy that was constantly on my mind. I thought about every single thing that was wrong with me, thinking that it would explain why he wouldn't text or call back. I thought about the doctors appointment after school wondering if they would knock more time off of my short life telling me that it got worse. Or going and finding out that my mom didn't make it and that my dad had won.

Every thought that ran through my head just made me depressed. Every thought made me think that I wan't good enough for Harry, that he deserved someone prettier and that would actually be around for him and maybe even future kids. Every thought told me that I wasn't good enough for Harry, my mom, or even life. Once the bell rang that school was over I pushed the thoughts aside and headed out the door.

I arrived at the hospital and first visited my mom. Then I headed over the cancer part of the hospital where I found out the worst news of my life. I went into room 500 the room that I was always in. 

It took an hour for them to finish the tests that needed to be done. After sitting for a half hour waiting for the results I saw the doctor walk though with a look on his face that told me that he didn't have good news. 

AUTHOR'S NOTE :)

heyyyy guys! this was a little more of a filler chapter that showed her thoughts :) I hope you are enjoying the book so far! over 300 reads already!! thanks so much :) I'll try and make that chapters longer in the future!! 

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~Kayla