Thunder Storm (GxG)

CHAPTER 34

Toni

Why would she say that to me? Why would she tell me she loves me in a very critical period, where I can't seem to understand what's happening to me, in a period where my heart and head were fighting each other constantly.

Why would she tell me about her infatuation when we only spent about a month together, she can't be in love with me, and I can't be--

Her words still played in my mind over and over again, they played with my decisions and thoughts and everything I believed in, now I'm left in the dark getting consumed by doubt. Doubt about what I'm feeling, uncertainty about everything I thought I wanted.

I didn't know what to believe or what to feel anymore, my mind was clouded and I didn't know how to make it clear. It'll drift to moments that weren't supposed to be "important" or have an impact on me, moments I thought were normal, but turned to be anything but that.

Her hands and the way they brushed on my face with care and worry in her eyes, the way she'd go out of her way to please me. The little proud smile she'd give me when I hold myself from blowing up on someone.

I have to stop...

She's getting into my head again...

But now that I'm thinking about it, she smelled so good, and I missed her scent. I missed her company, I missed her face, her presence in general.

I jolted up from the bed wide awake, everytime I close my eyes I see her. Everytime I try to fall asleep I feel her hands still wrapped around me, I need to get her out of my mind, because this is outrageous...

I didn't go back to my house since this morning, I assumed she'd like to stay alone so I didn't bother going back there.

Olivia was sleeping next to me looking so peaceful and calm, how can I do this to her? What is "this" in the first place? I love Olivia with all my heart but why is there this burning sensation in my chest everytime I think about Logan.

I softly kissed her cheek and got out of the bed, I don't know what time it was but I was sure it was past midnight. I wrapped my nightgown around my body and was about to make my way to the balcony when I remembered Rupert sent me the list of donors that I asked about but I spent the whole day thinking about Logan that I didn't even get the time to check it out.

I grabbed the envelope from the dresser and went to balcony, I sat on the very comfortable chair and crossed my legs. I slowly opened the envelope and pulled out the document.

I wasn't surprise that the list wasn't even long, it only had two people on it. The first one was a man named Harry Williams, in front of his name it said 'transplant complete', his blood type along with other personal information

As for the second person, it only said "Anonymous" along with a date of birth, why would someone donate as anonymous? I grabbed my phone and dialed the clinic's number because I know Rupert wouldn't tell me who it was.

"Hello, St Paul Clinic how may I help you?" The woman at the reception answered after the second ring.

"Hi, this is Toni Storm speaking. Dr Leon's patient, I would like to have some information about my donors"

"Oh Ms Storm, how are you feeling? Well I'd love to help you, what seems to be the problem?" She asked, I had to think of a way to get the information out of her without breaking the "confidentiality" rule.

"I've lost the original list of donors that had names from the day of the surgery, so Rupert told me to ask you since you hold all the clinic's information. Can you please forward it to me in this number?" I leaned forward and tapped on the table in front of me, I was being so impatient and I was trying not to make a scene.