MY ENDLESS LOVE FOR YOU.

CHAPTER-32

"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment."

PRITHVI

I knew the storm aka my wife was coming for me.

Momentarily I pause. That line sounds like my deepest desire. My dirty mind portrays the image of her moaning my name... I put the brake right there.

 She is going to be too mad for my decision. Somewhere in the morning, Gayu called pleading with me to arrange some decent place for her to stay. She saw some rats and a few cockroaches in her husband's home and was freaking out. I know her. She was just trying to find excuses not to interact with her in-laws. The urge to brutally question her choices was burning on my tongue.

'What did she think by agreeing to marry some random misogynic man?' But I didn't. It was a waste of time to expect honest responses from her.

In this unfamiliar place, I could ask for help from Jyothika's family. My father-in-law suggested his second guest house for her stay. It'd have been awkward to deny him. He was being kind and I can't openly say that I didn't want my sister to stay near as your daughter would throw a fit.

Honestly, I wanted to keep my interactions minimal with her family. Everything that happened back then triggered some parts of me and was a constant hindrance.

My mind was already occupied with its internal struggle. Whenever I get into this phase, I choose silence. Unless I find control of my senses I don't involve anyone in any way.

But who is going to stop Jyothika?

Sighing, I lean beside the railed window of the guest house. I still can't believe I was in Jyothika's village and was spending time with her family. And I was being treated like a royal. The thought left a bitter taste. Different from my previous visit. I was not the kind of person to hold grudges but I can't stop myself from comparing the two scenarios.

The fear to lose everything.

The fear to lose her.

The fear of what if my identity was revealed and then I'd be considered unworthy of her. To get rejected for being an illegitimate son.

I have lived in fear and insecurity for many days, years that something will happen and again I'd be thrown to rot in the orphanage. The reason why I worked hard, and grueling in life is to earn my respect. A power, a status where none of those name-calling voices could touch me.

Even if Mr. sooryavanshi changed his mind to disown me or if the truth came out I was now confident enough to stand my ground. Whatever I suffered- the merciless, painful childhood, insulted, disrespected, and the dread of abandonment- I don't want to live that kind of life again. Never... for my children.

I just need my Jyothika and I could face anything. This was why I have to fight the urge to leave these unfamiliarities and learn to accept the new reality. Jyothika's family was mine too. With time, I'll accept them. Not anytime soon though.

I huff in displeasure remembering her elder brother was picking up on me. I tried my best not to snap at him for being questioned about my upbringing. The worst part was except for her mother no one asked him to stop. The faded anger mounts up into a roar in my nerves.

How dare he disrespect my mother? I should have reminded him of how I thrashed his body in the dual.

"Jyothi!" I glance outside. Gayu stopped Jyothika with a cheerful smile. "Your family is so nice to help with our accommodation at such an urgency. Now we all could be near each other and spend this vacation together. Anyways, I was thinking we can have dinner together and do site seeing together tomorrow. I'm so excited! This trip is more fun than I was expecting it to be. All because of Prithvi,"