Waste Of Time (Seongjoong)

~Epilogue~

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Imagine being so afraid to love someone and becoming so infatuated at a time where you'd convinced yourself you were unworthy of someone else's love, and that person was so afraid to give you love.

And now, can you imagine standing in front of a table. With a legal document ready to sign whenever you choose to that will alter you, and your partner for the rest of your life.

I can't imagine it.

But it actually happened.

I'm still having trouble wrapping my mind around it. And it's been five entire years.

And now, I have that same quickening heartbeat I did when we first kissed before we were even involved with one another. That same heartbeat that I've come so accustomed to as firsts with Kim Hongjoong.

Eloping isn't the most, traditional way of going about marriage. But a big wedding felt too much for us. We dressed nice, and went to the courthouse rather then spending too much money on an event we didn't even want.

This is a first and a last. The end of a book, but the beginning of a series. It was sad, and exciting, and scary all in every breath I took. Just as it had been five years ago when he brought me to that little abandoned barn.

I wonder how many times we'd visited since. The barn has since been torn down, and some of the trees cut. But it somehow felt the same. It held nostalgia. Now without the barn we lay on the grass that had grown into the dirt.

Time seems to move faster as you get older. Five years has felt like two weeks. We'd moved in together, still right above that same coffee shop, with Hongjoong's sweet little cats.

Every time I look at him. I wonder exactly when I fell in love with him. Down to the day, the minute, the second. When did I fall in love?

I didn't know. I never would. But I know I was in love. So unbelievably in love with him.

Here he stood next to me, a pen in his hand. And I could only imagine his heart was beating as hard and fast as mine.

"You really wanna do this? Be legally partnered to me?"
He asked right before his pen touched the paper.
"I've never been more sure of anything."

And in that second, he signed the papers. It took one last signature. My signature. I let my pen drop to the paper and glide through my name.

"We're married."
Hongjoong said, letting out a deep breath he'd been holding. He turned. A huge smile plastered on his face.
"We're married."
I echoed, with an equal smile on my face.
"Yay?"
He said in the most questioning tone.
"I'm so happy, Hongjoong."

"I am too. But I want out of this courtroom because I can't do what I want to do in here."
He grabbed my hand and drug me out of the building. Hurrying his way to our car, and quickly having me drive home.

The second I was in the door he wrapped his arms around my neck to pull me down into a kiss.
"We're married!"
He excitedly yelled, placing another kiss on my lips.
"You're the dumbest person I know. To date me, and then marry me. And I couldn't be more excited."
He said, a huge smile plastered on his pretty face.
"I love you."
I said, returning his smile.

His left arm fell back to his side, his right hand came to grab my hand and pull further into our apartment.

"I have something for you."
He said pulling me into our bedroom.
"I like the idea of that."
I answer following him willingly over to our bed.
"Well. Two things. But one's for later, and you don't get to see that one just yet."
He laughed, pressing another kiss onto my lips before physically willing me to sit on the bed.

I watched him walk to his bag tossed into the corner and pull a small black box out of it.

I tilted my head at him.
"A ring."
He nodded a bit.
"Two actually."
He plopped himself down onto the bed next to me, and opened the little box. Two shiny wedding bands sat inside, he picked one up, and grabbed my left hand to slip it over my ring finger.

The rings were interesting, it had two halves split long ways to each half wrapped your finder, and separated with gold, the upper half had a purple stone through it, and the lower half was a sandy color, and a seemingly sandy texture underneath the glass like coating. The whole ring was framed in gold.

"It's so pretty."
I awed. Looking back at Hongjoong who had been watching my entire reaction.
"You're so pretty."
He whispered.
"Oh, it's amethyst."
He suddenly said.
"I had it custom made. The bottom is some of the soil from that old barn."

"What? Really?"
He nodded.
"It's not the prettiest. But I thought it held more meaning then a diamond would."

"I love it. And I love you even more."
I replied.
"I love you too, Seonghwa."

He laid back on the bed.
"We're married. We made it."
I rolled over into his side.
"We did."