To my beloved, Terry

Chapter 33

It's so scary to think— to even merely imagine the fullness of time. How did we end up like this? How are we suppose to end up again? How uncertain of us with time that we hardly recognize its ampleness.

But in times like this, in times when Beomgyu couldn't think of anything other than his lover's lips, he doesn't care whether the future he longed wouldn't turn out the way he wanted to. As long as he gets to saviour this moment, a moment in time where he could perhaps look back if the universe will mess up— mess them up.

Blame his insecurities or maybe his habit of overthinking but he couldn't help it. He spent the old days with such guilt, longing and wandering where should he be until now.

“Who got you smiling like that, hmm?” Taehyun asked halting the prolonged make out session right by his front door. Beomgyu smelled like magnolia and Taehyun would never get tired of pointing how much it eases him— to know that he is this close to Beomgyu. There's a sense of satisfaction that blooms within him, proud that he gets to hold his lover now. Almost cocky thinking about how his past self— Terry wasn't able to do so.

“You and... this. I feel like I'm floating with so much happiness right now.” Beomgyu amused as Taehyun never left devouring his neck.

“Hmmm? How do you feel about this?” Taehyun asked tracing up to where he remembers Beomgyu's ticklish parts, his earlobe and he's down bad when he hears the breathy moan from the older as he clutches hard on his hair almost ripping it off his head.

“T-Taehyun, wait.” Beomgyu manage to state the prevailing ball game. God knows how much he wants Taehyun to do him, probably ever since he saw the guy but he wanted to saviour the moment. He wanted to take things slow. Tortuous, excruciating but passionate and with full of conviction. It's from the longing Ben felt for Terry. This is from the longing he had for Taehyun too.

“Are you okay?” Taehyun asked in worry scoping him up as closely as possible— as if it's possible enough too with the zero distance they have.

“Yes, yes. Stop worrying, I just... just wanna look at you first.” He replied cupping Taehyun's face and looked at him earnestly like he should supposed to be doing ever since because the younger is beautiful, kind, caring and all the good things in earth but also because it's Taehyun.

“I am so in love with you. I have been in love with you for what seems like so many lifetimes.” He confessed, noticing how Taehyun's ears beat red hearing such affection.

“And I will love you for another lifetime too. Terry, Me and to the person who will be me in the next lifetime. I vow to the heavens that I will only search for you in whatever universe you are.” Beomgyu couldn't help but blush at the sudden confession too.

“That's so beautiful. I love that.” Beomgyu giggled once again, giving him a light peck on his lips.

“But I want you more right now.” He continues never leaving the younger's gaze. The air between them instantly turned into something lustful and fiery as Beomgyu make a show of arching his back as he let Taehyun felt how hard he was against the tight jeans he was wearing.

Taehyun wanted to rip all of Beomgyu's clothes right now. He wanted so much to devour the older until he couldn't hear anything but moans, pleads and all the beautiful sounds that he could make when he is within the deepest of Beomgyu's core. His dick twitches as the sight of submission that the older is showing.

“How much do want me?” He asked, laced with so much patience and restrictions as he held Beomgyu by waist who had never halted from his movements.

“So much. I want you to make me forget my name. I want you to make me scream and forget everything. I want you to own me like how you are supposed to.” Beomgyu replied, surprising him at how vulgar and brave the older is when in this state— horny, needy and adorable.