4 Brothers

Chapter 3

"Why don't you do more, I thought magic was so powerful?" Ryō asks into the silence.
"Maybe he just doesn't has the talent to do more, maybe he could try something else?" Yuki says while looking at Ryō.
"He has the talent, if he didn't had it he couldn't do any magical thing at all" Haru interrupts.
I start to get angry, I could do more I'm just scared of the feeling that is starting to overcome me at some point and I don't want to let go of my control.
Of course I could do something else but I don't want to I just don't want to let go.
Maybe I should tell them but before I open my mouth, and any words could escape, my master interrupts.
"Silence! Please let me talk to your brother alone" my brothers looked each other in the eye and silently got back into the temple.
I'm getting kind of scared as my master turns to me. Sitting down on my knees I look to the ground not knowing what is going to happen next.
"Why were you holding back" my father asks randomly, I look at him shocked "I...I don't know. I just can't do more" I say.
"That's not true" he interrupts.
I look at him confused how would he know ? "Akira listen, you could do more and you know... I can see it in you're face when I look closely" my master said.
What does he even mean, I mean he's right but the hole face thing is just confusing "...am I right?" he said .
Ah shit I wasn't listening "Uhh... yes yes of course"I said fast he just sighed probably knows that I wasn't listening at all.
He begins again and this time I am listening "You have to learn to let go, all of you go training every week, get to reach different skills and new knowledge, you can't have this privilege, because magic is a really uncommon gift".
"So what am I supposed to do ?" I ask "Better question my son... what do you want to do?"
I look at him confused.
He starts again before I can ask more "you need to know what you want to do and who do you want to be, to actually start something.
It doesn't have to be clear and it's nothing unchangeable but start to think about what you want and then start to do something to get it, the rest is practice, experience and a little bit of luck".
Okay that's a lot but I think I understand. Because of the rarity of magicians there are almost no teachers or books to learn from, but I'm not even sure if I want to be a magician. I look at my master he is probably expecting an answer.
"Can I go for a walk ?" I ask and I really mean the question I want to think about it.
He looks at me for a second and nods.
And then I am away, over the wall and into the forest.