living under the blade

part 7

after that talk with bill, i couldn't look at tom the same way i did before

i mean...a mafia boss... okay thats hot and totally bad ass but so fucking dangerous

why would he tell me? i mean we said no secrets? right?

so

after that talk with bill, which i found very comforting

i went inside to take a shower and to tell the new info sink in

when i was on my way to the bedroom, i heard tom 

"hey baby" he walked to the end of the stairs, thinking i would walk back down to him but i

continued my way to the bedroom without stalking to him

"whats her problem?" i heard tom asking bill

bill shrugged his shoulders and walked living room

when i entered the bedroom, i went straight to the bathroom

a cold shower was all i needed right now

after a long shower, i rubbed my whole body in with after sun lotion

i still could not believe why tom wouldn't tell me the truth

he said his job was to protect me, but he never said that he was a mafia boss

i mean, there is nobody i could spill it to bc i live in between these 4 walls 24/7

the sun was going down, i wasn't feeling like eating

i didn't had the energy to go downstairs and face tom, it would turn into and argument for sure

i put on my pj and got in bed, i turned on the tv for a bit and then went to sleep

i could sleep, for obvious reasons

my mind was not able to get any rest, the whole tom being a mafia boss was going through my head

being a mafia boss is not the whole problem to me but the side effects are

its is dangerous, he probs kills people bc thats what the mafia does right

why couldn't he just tell me?

the whole overthinking made me so tired that i felt asleep

lucky bc i needed it

it was 1:09AM and i felt someone getting under the bedsheets

ofc its tom

i felt a pair of cold arms slide around my waist, pulling me closer to his chest

i could smell sigs and alcohol

i shivered at the feeling of tom's lips giving me a small kiss on my bare shoulder

the next morning 

i woke up pretty early

yea no shit i went to bed when it was like 18:43PM

i had enough sleep for the whole week i think

it was just a simple Wednesday morning, i got up and went to the kitchen

it was 7:26AM, nobody in the house was awake

i made myself a bowl of yoghurt with fruits and a glass of water

it was again a hot day 

i took my breakfast and went to sit outside 

i took place at the table that stood next to the house, fully in the sun

i was enjoying this moment, the sun was shining, the birds were awake and there was no other noises

the moment ofc did last for ever

"why did you leave bed so early?" tom's raspy morning voice said, while he stood behind me with his arms around my shoulders, leaning his head on top of mine

"bc i couldn't sleep anymore and i was hungry" my answer was kinda dry

but could you blame me? 

i was not mad at tom, i was just annoyed that he wouldn't tell the truth and just acts like this is all normal

he made that promise himself

"well alright" he didn't really knew what to answer

"im gonna go back inside okay?" he gave me a kiss on my cheek

"mhm"

with that he left