Scribbles, Thoughts, and Doodles.

Doodle: Self Sabotage

I lengthened the gap between us.

by not only running, because I also hid and lied.

I just wanted to win this race, I was leading in first place

And finally, I could see the finish line.

there it was, right in front of me,

I felt the adrenaline rushing through every single vein

I wanted to make you proud

i thought winning was the answer to ease this pain

so close, I already felt victorious

everything I had ever wanted were a few steps away

I crossed the line excited

but no one cared and my feelings didnt change

I was longing for more,

I didnt know what to do

I was stuck with this ache

I was lost and confused

I thought I was winning for us

but I could feel your own hurt from being left behind

I turned my head and looked back at you

we were a team but my fears and insecurities turned me blind

I forgot we were in this together, running a three-legged race

but I left you by yourself

I was inconsiderate so we both lost

and ill forever remember the look on your face.

it's all my fault,

self-sabotage.