✓Day Of The Dead (MuiTan - TanMui)✓

Chapter Fifteen - Comforting Pain

TW - self harm

Muichiro's pov

I walked into our room after showering, laying my clothes on a chair and laying down on my bed while Kanao and Tanjiro talked.

"Any time you'll need anything just tell me, okay? I'll be happy to help" Tanjiro said and Kanao quietly hummed "yes, thank you so much again"

I groaned and pulled the blanket over my whole body. I heard Tanjiro sigh "just ignore him, he can be a lot sometimes"

I felt a lump in my throat. I didn't expect Tanjiro to say something like this about me.. I would never have expected it from him..

It hurted a lot, it felt like I got replaced the second she came here.. and I hated it. I felt myself being moved to the side a bit before Tanjiro said "you took the whole bed, I had to move you a bit" he laughed slightly.

I didn't answer because I knew if I did, nothing but a quiet sob would come out. I felt so betrayed just by him saying such a thing. First he doesn't understand why I don't want her to sleep on Genya's bed, now he thinks I am "a lot" sometimes.

I covered my mouth, not able to hold back my sobs. I wanted Genya back.. I wanted that girl to leave.. I wanted Tanjiro all for myself..

"Mui? Hey, are you alright?" Tanjiro asked and I nodded, hoping he wouldn't ask more but he just pulled me into a hug, which just made me cry even harder.

"Hey.. tell me what's wrong" he said and turned me around so I faced him. He shook my head, looking down, not wanting to make eye contact with him.

"Is it because of me? Kanao? Or do you miss Genya?" He asked. The second he said Genya's name, I bursted into tears. He hugged me into a hug and let me cry while rubbing my back.

"I know it's hard to get over it, I know.. but I am here for you, okay? Just like I said before, you don't have to go through this alone.. anything that bothers you, you can say it to me and I'll always be here to comfort you" Tanjiro said and I buried my face deeper into his shoulder.

As he held me in his arms, I couldn't stop thinking about what happened in the shower "why did I moan his name like that.." I thought and felt Tanjiro pull me closer, his arm wrapped around my waist while I had my head on his chest. He was already asleep but I couldn't, so I just laid there, thinking.

I felt his warm breath hit the top of my head, making my chest feel all funny. "This feeling again.. when was the last time I felt like this.." I thought, being so confused once again.

Then it hit me "Genya.. I felt this way around Genya.." I thought and tightened my grip on Tanjiro's shirt.

"Does this mean.. I am in love with Tanjiro..?" I thought, the thought of it scared me "how can I be in love with someone this early after Genya's death?!" I thought, being so mad at myself.

I shook my head "no.. I can't feel this way.. I just can't.. I need some time to heal and after I'll think about relationships.. I can't do that to Genya.." I thought, tears filling my eyes once again.

Next day

"Good morning Mui" Mitsuri said and walked over to me with a plate of food "here, I made you your favorite toast!"