"you died!"

red moon and red flowers

i almost didnt want to share some of these following thoughts

theyre personal

to my experience with her

but i figured

maybe i should.

so i took another look at it

and ill publish it here

now, a lot of this is covered in what thoughts i did write previously - so if you want to skip to that, go right ahead. im only writing for myself, really

as i said
theyre more thoughts

less of poetry or the like.

these thoughts came up once again

as there was a blood moon phenomenon just this sunday evening, the 21st

as well as an eclipse

but the blood moon,
brought a certain memory to mind

i may explain.

with my ex girlfriend,

we texted, a lot

of plans we had

one night, there had been a video she came across

of how there would be a blood moon happening, that night

now of course, we had school the next day. we hadnt even hung out outside of school for the first time, not even knowing each other for too much more than a week - well, we werent even meant to be texting at the time

it was late

we were both meant to be asleep, but talking anyway

two dumb kids in love, you know

but it lead to us,

talking

and eventually calling

we called through the night.

as we couldnt be physically together for the special night

we wanted to spend the night together.

and kiss in the moonlight

really, nothing more simple

i dont know.

i suppose i had better thoughts last night, when i was really in my mind

(5/22/23)