Some people wonder
Why I hate food
My brain and body
Just can't handle it
My brain says I can't
Because this food's
Too fatty
Or it has the wrong
Taste on my tongue
Or The shape feels poky
And I can't stand the feeling
My stomach can't
Handle much at all
I eat and then
I'm running to the bathroom
Embarrassed every time I eat
Outside of my house
My brain says
I'm too fat too eat
And what's the point anyway
It just causes pain
And I'm already chubby
People will only congratulate me
Even if I've lost weight
Because of my stomach
Paining me every time I eat
While my brain screams that there's no point in trying
Because nothing is working and no one care
They say I look better
Even though I feel worse
Even though it always hurts
I can barely eat but I look better I guess
That's what everyone seems to think
That's there's nothing wrong because
I apparently needed to lose that weight
Proving to my brain that I am too fat to deserve to eat
So I'll probably just never enjoy food again
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rainbow system's poems
Poetryjust a book of our poems. most are sad and deal with deep topics. we've put trigger warnings on specific poems but please beware that there are multiple potentially triggering topics discussed in most of our poems
