Ellio's Infierno

CHAPTER 6

Blood everywhere

Blood by the door

Blood in the living room

Blood in the kitchen...

Three bodies lay cold on the floor

I blink once

I blink twice

I blinked again

and again..

But the bodies were still there.

I couldn't move and I couldn't look away, It was like a nightmare that never seemed to end, my hands shook violently as I tried to process what had happened, it was like I had no control of my body.

I wanted to scream, to go after the men who did this, but I couldn't.

The haunting look my father had as I stared at his lifeless eyes felt like an invisible force that surrounded me and wouldn't let me leave, slowly choking me and knocking the air off my lungs...

I couldn't breathe

Do something! get help! they're dying!  

I can't breathe

I can't breathe

I can't breathe

pleasepleaseplease!!!

" Hey," someone whispered

My senses started to slowly return, and I was once again back to my reality.

" Your lips are turning blue, are you okay? "

My eyes rapidly blinked as I focused on Demi's voice as she assessed my expression.

The feeling of oxygen rushing back to my lungs left a burning sensation as I tried to discreetly take deep breaths and gave Demi an absent-minded nod.

She hesitantly nodded but still looked concerned. " Why were you -"

" L-labas muna ako saglit ha? ang init eh " paalam ko dito bago pa ulit makapag tanong ng kung ano.

Mga tanong na hindi ko alam pano sasagutin.

I got up and went straight to the women's bathroom down the empty corridor, I know my excuse was obviously not true, the caseroom was fully air-conditioned and had industrial fans kaya impossible ang sinabi ko na nai-initan ako, kailangan ko lang talaga makalabas agad doon kasi nararamdaman ko na s-sumpungin nanaman ako ng panick attacks.

I tried to calm myself by taking deep breaths and splashing my face with cold water, kahit papano ay nahimasmasan ako, tinitigan ko maigi ang sarili ko sa salamin, namumutla at balisa ang itsura, ibang iba sa Ali kanina na nakikipag biruan at tawanan sa mga kaibigan.

I had good days and bad days, but this? this was definitely one of the worst days I have had in a while. A minute ago, I was a brilliant law student! and the next second? I was that twelve year old girl again. Back in my childhood home, the girl who lost everyone she loved in one night.

" They're just memories, you're fine," I told myself in the mirror over and over.

This can not be happening again

I groaned internally as tears started to pool in my eyes again.

Why does this always happen in the most inconvenient situation?

I tried to fix myself by gently slapping my cheeks to bring back the color in them and silently hoping that I would wake up from my life, which is an endless series of panick attacks and nightmares