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"They're doing everything they can"
"AND WHAT IF IT'S NOT ENOUGH? I WILL DIE!"
I mean that. I will die. No world is worth living in without her...
My mom is trying to console me but it isn't working. The only thing that will make me feel better is knowing that Freen is okay.
My mother gets up to go ask someone.
She comes back, and I stand up.
"How's she now??" I ask my mom
"Becky She- she..I- don't know how to say this but.."
"MOM JUST SAY IT! DONT SHE-SHE ME!" I yelled at her
"If she had been brought early by 20 minutes then she could've been saved..." She said half sobbingly
"Mom she..she isn't no more?" I ask my mom, tears flowing through my face. My vision starts to get blurry all of a sudden
"Yeah, Becky she's gone. She must've hurt herself pretty bad that's why she couldn't take it." My mom tells me
I started crying. Every moment i spent with her flashes in my mind
Her smell, her hugs, her kisses, her body, her voice, her smile, her beautiful body.
I started crying more loudly now.
It's like i can't control my tears if i even wanted to. They were flowing endlessly and I passed out there - on the hospital floor.
"IT-ITS MY FA-FAULT TH-THAT SHES NO MO-MORE! I LET HER G-GO. I SHOULD'VE GONE AFT-ER HE-HER."
I managed to say this out because it was eating me.
My mom started sobbing seeing me like this
She came to me and pulled me into a hug. But it couldn't help
The more I was crying the more i Remembered Freen. There's a part of me who blames me for her death and the other part is blaming her family because if she had some nice parents she wouldn't be going through all that she went through.
"I LOST HER! I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE" I yelled at myself. Inwas trying to get up but My mom still not letting me go
"I WAS GOING TO MARRY HER. I WAS GOING TO SPEND MY LIFETIME WITH HER AND SHE-SHE ISN'T EVEN..."
BECKY?? BECKY CAN YOU HEAR ME?
WHATS GOING ON WITH HER DOCTOR?
I heard my mom's voice and what's she saying? Like a moment ago we were in a hug and now what's she saying? Did she started taking pills too? Oh no i can't loose my mom now I've already lost Free-
"HOW'S FREEN DOC?" I heard my mom ask some doctor
"IT'S STILL TOO SOON TO KNOW ANYTHING" I heard a man's voice say this
"DOC PLEASE SAVE HER. MY DAUGHTER WONT BE ABLE TO BEAR THE PAIN IF ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS TO FREEN"
Wait what? Freen's alive? Then what was that hug and my mom telling me she's no more?
I came back to my senses just to find out me in a hospital room lying on a bench with my mom talking to the doctor. While I almost laying on the bed type bench.
My mom notices me again
"Oh my god, Becky can you hear me already??" She asked panicked
"Well ye-yeah mom I can hear you. Why do you ask? Weren't you hugging me back there ?? And F-Freen isn't she gone?" I asked my voice cracked while asking about Freen but i managed to get it out
"Freen?Gone? What're you saying Becky? She's still in operation."
She said in shock
"But you were just comforting me saying that she isn't no more."
I half sobbed on my words again
"Oh I see, She must've been in so much shock that her mind started creating delusions and fake scenarios." The doctor standing beside me said
"That means all that i just commited was fake?" I asked him. Now I was crying plus sobbing
" Yeah, that's common. It happens to those who are afraid of loosing something or someone very precious to them. It feels like reality but it isn't actually." He said re - assuring me
"Geez Becky you scared the hell out of me. So that silentness of yours was because you were day-dreaming-your-tragedyful-fake-scenarios-where-freen-had-died-isnt-it?"
To be honest I never saw this side of my mom but i think she stressed out because of me passing out and Freen ofcourse. I decide to stay quiet. And just nodded
After sometime I got up and walked to get some water because my throat was sore because of crying a swimming pool.
I facepalmed myself mentally because I wasn't in the condition to do that physically.
I went back to where my mom and the doc was and asked
"How's Freen?"
"It's still too soon to know anything..."
I slump back onto the floor.
"Why would she do this to me?!"
My mother sits down next to me again. "I don't know sweetie... But I know in my heart that she'll be okay."
"She better be... I want to marry her. I want to spend forever with her... She's my soul mate mom... I love her..."
I put my head back in my arms, and my mom rubs my back. "I know you do honey."
"You don't know mom! What Freen and I have... It's something most people wish for! It's true love! And my true love was in so much pain that she tried to take the easy way out!"
We now just sit here in silence. What if I was too late? I'm so stupid. I shouldn't have let her be by herself... I knew how much she was hurting.
"Mom... What if I lose her...?"
"Try not to think about that Becky. Lets just hope for the best okay sweetie?"
She just doesn't get it! I swear this will turn into some fucked up version of Romeo and Juliet if Freen isn't okay.
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FanfictionFreen sarocha chankimha who's in school, loves shooting and is in cheer team. she's the queen bee of the school Lives with her father as her mother passed away when she was 13 months old Becky Armstrong who's in the same school as freen, is not so p...
