Is This A Dream? (1D)

Secrets....

A/N: sorry I haven't updated, I don't have many reads so I didn't have it as my first priority sorry! I will try and update everyday though x enjoy!

BTW!!!! Should Jordyn and Louis be Lordyn? or Jouis? And for Shantel and Harry, sharry? That's good right? Anyway! You can go read it now xxx

- *A Week Later*

Things with me and Louis are going great, but sometimes Laviah will call me to freak me out. And today she showed up at my door with my friend Bailey. I havent talked to her in a while and it was a surprise to see her, Laviah didn't say anything. She just gave me a box, and then left, but I welcomed bailey into my house.

Inside the box Laviah gave me was a note Saying "Have fun while you can. Once you "disappear" then he will love me" okay. Very scary. I've really got to stop thinking about everything.

"So Jordyn, do you think you could hook me up with Zayn?" Bailey said to me while we were watching a movie, that's when I knew she was going to be using me for them, I knew this was going to happen, so I Just looked at her. "please?" she said. "No, bailey come on, if your just gonna use me for them then get out" I said leading her towards the door. I can't believe this, although my mood suddenly changed! Louis is calling me!

Me: Hello?

Lou: Hey babe, what's up?

Me: just been chilling with friends!

Lou: that sounds fun, I miss you!

Me: I miss you too!

By the way, the boys had to go back to work so now they are in Spain, and nobody knows about us dating yet! Except Shantel and Harry! They aren't official yet. But they've gone out a few times, some with me an lou, some without! they are going great, and so are me and Louis! Anyway, back to the call

Lou: We have a few shows in Toronto this week, so you going to come?

Me; of course, how long will u guys be here?

Lou: 4 nights.

Me: want to stay with me instead of a hotel?

Lou: I was actually kind of hoping you would stay at the hotel with us...

-I was surprised by that comment. But I happily agreed then we got off the phone... What's going to happen? L

I called shantel and told her, she told me how Harry asked her to stay As well, so we Both were freaking out about what was going to happen.

*The night before we go*

"Shantel, can u help me? Pack my sexiest pjs you can find!"

"What do you think is going to happen exactly?" she said, concerned. "I'm not sure, that's the thing" I replied, "Would you?" she said, stopping everything she was doing, just staring at me in the mirror! I'm straightening my hair so I don't have to do it tomorrow. I just nodded and put down my hair straightener. "Are you sure it's what you want to do Jord?" silence flew over us. "Already?" she added. There is something only Shantel knows about me, Not Louis, not Rebecca, Not even Daisy... But I'm a virgin. Not physically, but mentally. I was raped when I was 14 and ever since then, I haven't been able to think about sex. I've also been worried about some of my boyfriends because the man who raped me, was my boyfriend at the times dad.. So things like this freak me out, but I think I'm ready. "Should I?" I said. I trust Shantel more then anybody so I know she will tell me what to do. She smiled, got up off the floor and walked over to me, she hugged me from behind and said "Jordyn, do what you want. If you really like him, and if you think your ready. Then I believe you are ready! But tell him. Please?" she said, as I turned around in her arms.

"I will" I said with a smile and continued hugging her...