Lilith and Amity oneshots (REQUESTS CLOSED)

never good enough

Amity has trouble eating. She always thinks that she'll never be good enough for anyone or anything. Her new guardian finds out about this and confronts about this. How will Amity take this?

Tw for eating disorders, child abuse, and sh

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Amity had stepped into the bathroom, locking it and sighing in relief. She loved everything about living with Lilith, the forehead kisses, the hugs, the loving energy, but what she hated was dinner. She may or may not have a tough time eating. Lilith would always make sure that she would be having dinner with Amity. This made Amity uncomfortable. She wasn't used to eating in front of people. She ate about half of her meal before she grew nauseous by the smell and look. She figured it would be enough to make Lilith not worry. However, she was still nauseous by the time she got to the bathroom. She knew what she had to do. She grabbed her toothbrush and bent over the toilet. She purged and purged until she got all of her small dinner out and some stomach water. She would always do this when she felt as though she ate too much. For some reason, she had a hard time getting everything out. She would dry heave and heave until a little bit got out. She flushed the toilet and washed her toothbrush and hands before she brushed her teeth so Lilith wouldn't smell puke breath and get concerned. When she was done, she heard a knock on the door

"Amity? Are you alright in there? You've been in the bathroom for 10 minutes now, I'm getting concerned…" Lilith said through the door.

Amity opened the door, looking up at Lilith, but then immediately looked down.

"I- uh, I'm fine, just…" she had a hard time thinking of an excuse. Then Lilith spoke up for her

"Were you constipated?"

Amity just had to accept that that was going to be her only excuse. She turned red and just nodded. This was so embarrassing.

"Alright, thank you for telling me, I was worried you were sick or something," Lilith told her.

"Yeah… I'm fine, though. I'm just gonna go study…" she stepped out of the bathroom and into her room. She took out her diary and began to write.

'I was almost caught purging today. Lilith almost found out. Sure, I had to use a stupid embarrassing excuse, but it kept my secret safe. Maybe if I just didn't put on weight so easily, I wouldn't have to do this. Why did my parents have to feed me so much when I was younger? I wish they tried to wean me off food earlier. It's not like I don't enjoy eating. I love the taste of homemade food. It's just that when I'm eating, I can hear my mom's voice in my head. I can also hear my own. It's constantly telling me how I'll gain weight if I eat too much. Why can't I just be normal?

-A.B

Amity set down her pen. She was glad to write her feelings down. It made her feel better to vent to an inanimate object. She took out her homework and began studying.

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The next day rolled around, and Amity was having a pretty good afternoon. She had one apple so far for a snack. It was now the weekend, and Lilith had left for work. She usually worked Saturdays, so this was normal. However, that changed when Amity got a call on her scroll.

"Dearest, I'll be coming home early today. There was a fire bee infestation at work. Would you like me to bring home something for lunch?"

Amity panicked. She felt nauseous just thinking about greasy junk food lunch.