V syndrome (VMIN)

열아홉

Decision

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Taehyung pov

Here I lean against the side of the wardrobe, gazing at my sleeping baby. A piece of cloth covers his lower body while his bareback faces me.

If I could gift him my eyes, I'll place it in his hands. If I had the ability, to gift him my heart, I'll remove it from my chest and give it to him. If I had the ability, to gift him my life, I'll put my days under his feet.

They say our love is a sin, so I said let us sin, let us drown in sin. You are not gods to judge us.

It is painful that I have realized that the only one at fault is me. I am the one who hurts him. My hate hurts him, and my love also hurts him.
I, V, am the one who revealed a weakness to my enemies so that their heels will raise over me. I am a colonel who has become a balancing act, a scale of protection, weighing the interests of my nation against those of my baby. I fear that the scale will tilt in one direction, making the decision difficult.

I approached him, placing my hat on the table and positioning myself behind him. I slipped my hand under his arm, reaching his chest and touching his left side, so that my veins could draw nourishment from his heartbeats.
I planted kisses on his shoulders and neck, my lips reached his ear.
"Jiminie, wake up!" I whispered, caressing his hair with my other hand.

He didn't respond, so I kissed his cheek and then kissed his temple in succession that made him move, "Come on, baby, enough sleep, it's evening," I told him again, and he said in a hoarse tone of sleep.
"Just five more minutes, my back hurts," he muttered frowning, snuggling into my chest without opening his eyes.

I smiled stroking his back, "I wanted to take you somewhere, but you seem to prefer sleeping," I said, pretending to get up, so he opened his eyes and grabbed my arm.
"I woke up, look." He sat down on the bed, forgetting that he was completely naked, and when he noticed my smile, he shyly covered himself.

"I brought you clothes your size, take a shower and put them on, and we'll go out." I kissed his cheek and stood up.
"where are we going?"
"Evening walk, love".

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Jimin pov

I dressed with excitement, this is the first time we went out together outside the camp, and my excitement quickly disappeared when I remembered his features and gazes.

It's different from this morning, he looked so sad I didn't see the look of sadness in V's eyes only when he told me about his, and it's back now.

I had a bad feeling... I exhaled deeply distracting my mind from these thoughts.
I walked out and was met by Younghoon
"Good evening, Jimin," he said with a smile, "Hi, Younghoon, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thanks. Come on, I'll take you to your boyfriend." He winked at me, and I blushed, then nodded, and followed him.

He led me out of the camp towards the east of the river, out of sight.
As we got closer I caught sight of Taehyung's figure sitting under a big tree with no light in the place other than the yellowness of the setting sun. He turned and Younghoon signalled me to move forward and then nodded and left.

I approached until I was facing him, so he raised his head and extended his hand for me, I took it and he pulled me to sit between his folded legs. I am now inside my safe nest.

I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine for a while and then I put my hand on his cheek.
"What's wrong with you, Taehyung? What is this sadness in your eyes?"
He grabbed my hand kissing my palm and then closed his eyes saying