"W-what the hell a-are you even wearing?" He looks away swiftly, bringing his hand up to his mouth.
You look down to yourself, your white top which has got all transparent and the fact that you are not even wearing your pants. You let out a gasp br...
~~The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place~~
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You get in the car, closing the door.
"Put on the seat belt" Namjoon states.
"When did mom tell you she is coming back?" You ask, as your brother starts the car.
"She texted me yesterday night, she was planning to come last week itself but was buzy with her new NGO in Tokyo"
You try not to ponder upon the thought that Namjoon has been touch with your mother whereas you haven't talked to her in years. The last time you talked to her was after the divorce, when she was leaving for Japan.
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You see your mom come out of the boarding station. Long thin earrings her, exorbitant clothing, Versace bag, hair perfectly in her place and the big smile on her face when she spots Namjoon.
She hasn't changed a bit.
"My son" she sings wrapping her arms around Namjoon, as he leans down a bit and hugs her.
"I missed you mom."
The elderly women's smiles gets wider "I missed you too"
She look towards your direction and calls out your name "have you been well?"
You nod, giving her a side hug and pulling out swiftly. "I hope you had a good flight" not knowing what else to say. Namjoon puts her luggage into the trunk as you get in the back seat.
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Namjoon parks his car in front of a restaurant. "Flavors" . It's not your first time here, it's mom's favourite restaurant.
The food arrives and you dig in immediately.
"I have asked you to come visit me so many times Namjoon, can't you listen to your old mom" she complains cutting the well made stake.
Namjoon let's out a chuckle "you know I have been busy mom,I came to Seoul just a couple a months ago. I need some time to settle."
"Oh yes of course." She looks towards you "How is your studies going?I hope your dad is not too busy to not even keep an eye on you"
The fact that you don't even feel offended anymore is concerning. It's true that you are not decent and obeying as Namjoon, always up to some mischief from a very young age, it's something you can't help.
"I am not living with him anymore" you answer after taking a deep breath.
"What?" She raises her eyebrow, leaving forward "what did you do ag-"
" I didn't do anything!" You cut her roughly.
"Mom" your brother call out. "It's okay. She is an adult now. She needs some space and she can take care of herself fine enough" your mom blinks toward you
"where are you staying?"
"At my friend's" you answer knowing she doesn't even remember Jungkook's name even though you have been friends from elementary school.
You continue eating your dinner in silence, as Namjoon and your mom talk about things that you don't bother to listen to. Not like it concerns you. It has always been like that. Namjoon the intelligent, wise, elegant and obedient son, who takes after his parents. You yourself can't deny it that he is perfect.
You wished you could become like him but you couldn't, all you hoped was your parents could see that too. You wish they knew your favourite subject is arts and not maths like Namjoon. That your hobbies are dancing and sports and not reading like Namjoon. You wished they could gift you a skateboard on your birthday and not an encyclopaedia which Namjoon likes. You wished they could take you to Amusement parks on holidays and not to museums which Namjoon likes. You were not Namjoon and you can never become like him.
You just came in terms to accept it as you grew older and stopped trying to impress your parents.
The rest of the evening goes in blur. Your mom stays in her aunts house saying she won't be able to stay for long and have to leave tomorrow evening. You and your brother bid her farewell and Namjoon drops you to Jungkook house.
You drop down on your bed. It was a long day and an exhausting one. You stare at the moon out of the window as memories flash before your eyes.
2 years ago
"I ll be leaving to Japan Tomorrow, take care of yourself and don't create trouble to your bad or do something that will bring shame to the Kim family" she says closing the car door.
Eighteen year old you watches as the car leaves and walk in your house.
It's empty.
All cold and dark.
Your dad busy in settling the divorce articles and making sure it won't affect his elections
Your mom leaving to the airport to start her new life
And your brother who is in other side of the world.
