Two Worlds - Namjin

17- Recover

Pov. Namjoon

Going to work when you feel like shit should be illegal. Why can't I have a whole year of pay without work? You know, enough to go through the first part of my depression peacefully. Sadly, that's not possible and all I can do is sit in my office staring at the wall counting the hours.

The only reason why I didn't quit is because I promised him. I promised I would be a better man, that I would have a decent job. And for some reason I wanna hold on to the hope that maybe he'll forgive me someday. It's not likely but a man can dream. I stare at my phone where no texts arrived even after the thousands of calls I made. There's no point, Jin is not answering me.

Why would he answer? If he's smart enough, he shouldn't. He should be with someone who doesn't hurt him the way I did. Everytime I close my eyes the sound of him crying inside his house comes back to mind breaking my heart. Some idiot texts me making my heart jump as I hold on to the phone like my life depends on it but it's just...

Soobin
Hey! RM! You never came to get your part of the money! One more day or we'll keep it ourselves. No take backs!

Ah, right. These guys. I haven't talked to them again. I can't think of anything or anyone that isn't my boyf...my ex? God, it sounds so wrong. How could I be such an idiot? To lose the only man I ever loved? Hating myself, I walk up to the window and open it slightly. I take out my cigarettes ready to have a smoke. Just so I can at least try to relax.

- Oh for fuck's sake, I forgot about this

As I open the box I can see the drawing Jin made on it. He did it so he could make sure I never bought any other box. So he could trust that I would stop smoking for him. Feeling even worst than before, I close the box and save it again.

I wanna break down and cry but I think I'm out of tears. This past few days I cried so much even strangers on the street stopped me to see if I was okay. And I'm not. I broke his heart. I brought back horrible memories he wanted to leave behind. And to top it all I left him there, crying his eye out, with no more money and a father that can't take care of himself.

Thinking about his savings gives me an idea. It's not something I'll do to get him back because to be honest I don't think that's possible. But it's the least I can do to give him back a little of what I took away from him. If I can make his heart hurt a little less, if I could help him...

I walk out and stop by my assistant's desk. He looks up ready for me to give him a new task but instead I write him an address on a piece of paper.

- I'll go out for a while. If I'm not back in an hour, call the police anonymously and tell them to head to this place.

- Sir? What are you gonna do?

- Believe me, you don't wanna know. And if you tell anyone else, you're fired

I use a cold tone strong enough to scare him. I'm sure the rumors he heard from me thanks to Hoseok are helping him keep the mouth shut. As I walk out the building I feel confident in what I'm doing. I don't stop to think about the consequences because all I wanna do is fix this. At least a little bit. Anything that will make him feel any better is worth it.

When I enter their hideout Soobin is the first one to see me. He waves at me with that innocent smile pretending like the four men behind him aren't counting money and preparing little bags of pills.

- RM! You're here! We were about to keep your part hahaha

- I want the money back

- Kai has your part so he can-

- Not mine. I want Jin's money back.

Taehyun is the one to look back at me, finally paying attention to my presence. But Soobin seems confused and tries to process my request.

- Jin? Jin...It doesn't ring a bell. We don't have a customer with that name that I know of

- The last job you gave me was paid with his money

- Ah! You mean Mr. Kim!

- Look, I know you guys have a business and all you want is make a deal and move on. But the money that man gave you wasn't his. It was his son's. It's not fair for you to keep it and I want it back.

Soobin remains obviously confused. He's clearly not in charge even if he pretends to be. Instead, Taehyun walks up to me with a serious face. His shirt is slightly open and I can see the shiny necklace around his neck. I recognize it now. And even though I would like to rip it off him, I try to have a modest approach.

- All I want is that money and then I'll leave

- I think you know we won't give you shit. That's ours. If you were giving us back our package I would consider it but that's not the case, is it?

And it never will be. Those drugs are unreachable for me or for anyone thanks to Jin. I don't blame him. Instead, I insist confident in my purpose.

- I think you have enough money on that table to let this small amount slide. It's not that much. You make a hundred times that amount in a day or two. And I'm not asking for permission to get it back...I'm just letting you know.

I walk past him towards the table where Kai and another two boys are sitting. Even if I don't know the exact amount of money Jin's father took from him, anything is better than nothing. These guys wouldn't be losing that much and it's an exception. They'll understand.

Or that's what I think until I feel something hit me from the back. It hurts enough to make me lose balance and I can't help to get dizzy. The beating is only starting and none of them intervenes. The only moment when another of them comes closer is to help Taehyun move me away from their table.

I feel weak. Too weak. I can feel every part of my body hurt. My bones, my muscles. The first hit to the head was strong enough to leave me defenseless. I can barely keep my eyes open. I see it all blurry and no one seems to care.

Someone else comes through the door. I can't look up at them. I don't have the strength to get up from the floor. But I do hear his voice. It sounds familiar. I don't know what he's saying but I thought I heard Jin's name. I must be going crazy. Or maybe I'm just thinking of the boy of my dreams before my eyes close and I stay unconscious until they decide what they'll do with me...

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Hi babes~ Here we are for some dramatic Namjoon ✨ Dumbass got in there with the guards down

Next time we'll see Jin and I think is one of my favorite chapters. I'll see you soon for that!

- Baby Y