Two Worlds - Namjin

8- Bad day

Pov. Jin

I was already having a shitty, stressful day from the start. I woke up late after ignoring my alarm 5 or 6 times. Also, I burned my coffee because I was too focused on my argument with dad. He kept insisting in getting some money to buy a present for grandma. Or basically, an excuse to get dugs considering he hasn't talked to her in years. And just when I thought my day could only get better...it got worse. I had more costumers than usual and apparently Namjoon had a busy morning as well since he didn't come here for a coffee as usual. Really, everything that could go wrong went wrong.

- Well, you look like shit

- Who do you thin...Oh, it's you. Tae, I appreciatte you trust me enough to say those things so directly but also...don't. I'll poison your coffee next time

- Ugh, fine. Can you get me the usual for me and Jiminie? I wanna cheer him up

- Broke up with someone else?

- Obviously. Also, he's looking for a new job and can't find anything. Now back to you, what's with the straight face?

- Please don't call any part of my body "straight" again. I'm just exhausted. I feel like a car with no gasonline

- And what would your gasoline be?

- A better family, a good lunch, Namj...I don't know

- I'll ignore that last part because I'm kinda disgusted. But you know the good thing? At least you can get most of those things. Well, the family part is complicated but the rest...

- Thanks, Tae. Here, take your order. And don't worry for the money, it's on me

He nods and leaves while I for once feel slightly relaxed. He's right. I could buy something nice to eat later trying not to spend much money. And most importantly...I could invite him to join me. The urge to hear his voice makes me pull out my phone. I want to write him letting him know he can call me when he has the time. But before I can send the message, an unknown number appears on my screen.

- Hello?

- Seokjin? This is Jihoon from the apartment next door. Are you okay?

- Uh, yeah? Why wouldn't I be?

- Your father told me you had an accident and then asked me money for the bus. What is go-

I hang up immediatly. Asking my boss for a huge favor I convince him to let me go early today. Maybe if I'm fast enough I can find my dad before he does something stupid. I don't get it. He knows he should stop but it's like he's not able to. He keeps thinking about consuming every hour of everyday. And I'm not sure how to help anymore. The good thing is that if he asked for money "for the bus" that means he doesn't have much. Hopefully it won't be enough at all.

It takes longer than I would've wanted. I walked around the block a few times and checked the places he used to visit frequently back then. But it's only when I'm about to give up on my way back home that I finally see him. The sun is setting but he looks like he has the energy of a thousand men. And that can't be good news.

- Dad! Let's go home before yo-

- Jin! HAHAHA I was just thinking about you, son! Wanna make me some nice dinner?

- Maybe we should go to the hospit-

- Lets go home then! I want something delicious. And it better be good.

His menacing tone together with his loud laugh brings back old and bad memories. I hate the person he becomes under the influence. It's so different to how he usually acts. He thinks it makes him more social and amazing but to me it's just scary. He crossed the fun limit a long time ago. Specially when he started to try the hardest type of drugs. On our way home I try to check his pulse a few times. They warned us about his heart condition and he doesn't have the age to do this things. His body is not like mine, he's twice my fucking age and no matter how much I hate to say it, I don't really wanna see him get hurt.

He doesn't let me touch his wrist for longer than a few seconds and it doesn't take long fo him to be irritated by my attitude. He pushes me almost making me fall and wish I could say this is the first time this happens but I'm not that lucky. We get home and I make sure to make dinner before his mood gets any worse. While I prepare everything, he acts like this is a party where he's the center of attention. I could ignore him and leave but I don't. I stay close to make sure he doesn't take anything else in case there's anything left from whatever he bought.

I also try to be focused on his words and gestures in case I need to call an ambulance. I guess good luck is on my side for once since he spends most of the night in his normal and kinda scary high state. Not having a heart attack or an overdose is better than nothing. As soon as he falls asleep, after hours of his annoying loud laugh, I check his pockets. There's no more money but also no more drugs.

Now, the room is silent. There's not a single thing doing any kind of noise. It's the most calm this place has been today but no matter how much I try I can't fall asleep. You would think after such a draining day I would sleep immediatly. However, I feel claustrophobic in my own home. I don't wanna be here. I don't wanna think ot move much. I'm still scared of what he will do if he wakes up even though I know he won't. Trying to distract myself, I pull out my phone. Only then I see the text I never sent Namjoon. I guess...I could...

- Jin? Are you okay?

Ah, his voice. I missed it. It's been less than a day but I needed it. I needed him.

- Pick me up...Please...

- Where are you? I'll be there in less than a minute

I bite my lip looking around. I wouldn't want the sound of the bike being too loud or it could wake my father up. It's not likely but I can't risk it.

- Just...let's meet at the coffee shop. Bring your bike. I wanna go far from here...

- I'll take you to the end of the world and back so just wait there okay? I'm on my way, love

Ah...love. Finally a name that feels nice. I realize only now I can breathe a little more calm. I leave the house ready for him to take me away. Away where none of this affects me anymore. Where all I'll need is to have him there...

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Hi babes~ Here's some Seokjin for y'all! Next we'll finally have them together again and I hope you're ready for that!

See you soon 💕

- Baby Y