Pure Innocence.

Chapter seven.

Trigger warning!! Verbal and physical abuse, alcohol, and drugs. I will put the scenes with this in it in italics and give an overview in the A/N. I love you babes and happy reading.

Aayda

Sunday was weird. And yet I still can't stop thinking about him and the two sentences he said to me. I know that sounds like your typical teenage girl thing but I never really look at boys and haven't since I got into high school. When I got to high school I didn't want to be in all the drama so I hid and im still hiding. I never wear anything flashy I only swear sweats or the occasional jeans and a hoodie. Sweatsuits are normally all I wear and I have no problem with that. I workout and take care of my body but I don't like showing it off.

Yesterday was weird at school. Everyone was talking about the hockey team and how they might be in trouble because the captain got injured. I love watching hockey matches but the school matches are where all the drama happens. I go to other school matches bt try and avoid ours just like all of the other sports.

This morning I woke up more tired than normal so i went on a run instead of the gym. Today is my rest day but I had to get something in. 

I get dressed and put on my shoes before I get my airpods and running bag with my wallet off the counter and write my dad a note saying I went on a run and that ill be back in time to get ready for school. I head out the door and decide that im going to run to my favorite local coffee shop to get me and dad a tea. As im running I fall into my music and thoughts. I let them completely take over but in a calming way.

I hit my runners high about twenty minutes into the run and have about ten minutes until I make it too the coffee shop when I hear a text come in on my airpods. It's my mom. I tap my airpod so it doesn't read it to me and decide I wait til I sit down to read it. I haven't talk to my mom a lot since I told her I was moving out and by that night I was gone. It has been a text here and there seeing how she was doing and having a ten word conversation but thats all. 

I make it to the coffee shop and order and then go sit down and wait for my tea. I decide that now is the time to read the message.

'Hey honey I wanted to talk to you let me know when you are free.'

Better to get this over with now I guess, and I have a pretty busy week with midterms coming up.

'Hey mom I think I can make it over this morning, let me talk to dad but I think it will work.'

I have always been more mature than people my age so when I made the decision to move out of my moms my dad knew that I was old enough to make my own decisions and have my own responsibilities. So he always lets me do what I think is best for myself. He knows I don't just skip school and party, he knows I take stuff seriously so he has never had a problem letting me do my thing. So if I decide i want to take a day off from school he doesn't question me, I tell him everything so that helps but he trusts me and my judgement.

My tea came and I order a fresh one for dad to go and then remember to text Max and Lilla that im making a personal morning to myself and I should be at school by lunch. 

My dads tea comes and I start my run back but this time the run isn't as calm and peaceful, im really nervous to see my mom.

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I make it back home and set my stuff down and get in the shower. A cold one. After I get done I leave my hair to air dry while I do some light make-up and go to my closet to pick an outfit. Something inside of me wants to show my mom im better and wants to show her that im okay without her. I wind up picking some off white loose fitting cargo pants with a white cropped tank top and my dirty air force ones. I walk into my room again and do my hair in a slicked back pony before walking out of my room.