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Part 6: ......

Saturday morning...........
      It turns out we have general hostel sanitation every Saturday. Every student will have to complete some sort of work and get her name signed for duty completion before you can leave the hostel.
      The work include sweeping, restroom washing, room cleanup, and blablabla.... Too many to list. Any way, because of my not so bestest best friend, I was asked to stay away from hazardous work and stick to helping Aunt Alia clean up the room. I wanted to wash the restroom because it didn't seem difficult and it's actually pretty neat and small. But I sadly couldn't cuz it was cleaned earlier by Lily who woke up early in a rush to leave for class......fixed Saturday class I mean.
   
  We worked as hard and fast as we could, and together, we made it out alive..... dramatic. We made it out tired but achieved. The room was super clean. With that taken care of, I hopped onto my bed and cleared it up..... it was a horrible mess. With that done and dusted, literally, I got ready and headed to school to study.......
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      I managed to finish up the Korean series I started at home, man it was awesome. It was absolutely spontabulous, I have no idea if it's a real word or not..... Boohoo.
    I know I deleted all distractions in form of novels since the beginning of the week but... (sniffle) I couldn't gather the courage to let my movies go. Don't judge me.
    I finally kept movies aside and picked up my book. The honest truth is I still have no idea how I study. I don't even know how I got here. I feel like it's pure luck.
Anyway, I know I won't get anywhere just staring at this book for hours. I tried and it was pointless. Instead, I sit still and stare off into space. I ended up reminiscing about the weeks events. I still remember the bio lecture shock.
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       Reminisce....
       I sat down in class staring at the lecturer really hard trying to make my eye cooperate with my brain. It turns out they both have the same plan..... To sleep. I kept whispering to myself that the lecture is not boring and that I would totally understand it if I pay attention. With self motivation that totally did not work, my eyelids were closed within the blink of an eye. The disappointment.
       The two went on a world tour and returned only when I heard surprise pop quiz.
I awoke flustered in disbelief. I kept hoping that the lecturer was kidding..... But she wasn't. I can't believe I slept off.
Self note.... No more class naps.
       I wrote down the question and was so confused what to answer. I managed to fill my paper even if I'm not sure of what I wrote...... As my teacher in highschool said..."never leave your paper blank on any spot".  I was extremely grateful to the person whispering to his friend..... Thank you corruption.
     I glanced at my neighbors work only to notice the amount of differences and man it was not OK. I couldn't do anything mostly cuz I didn't want to and also the lecturer snatched the papers right on time. It was a nightmare come true.....
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     I can't believe it's another Monday already...... Time flies. I wake up around four am as usual and get ready as quickly as I can. It was a fast process considering the fact that I already took a bath and had breakfast about an hour ago.
    Now I have to be waking up extra early because of seat riots. You can't be in class around six am and expect to sit at the front  except if you have a friend ofcourse to keep seat for you. Sitting in the front enables following lectures, following lectures enables proper studying, proper studying equals success and success is good. So that's the equation going on in my brain as I get ready as early and quickly as possible.
    Classes are so intense that if you don't get the front seat you might as well be absent. I remember the last time I was late. I got a seat way farther from my usual spot. I remember sitting behind some boys that kept on turning back to look at me. I had to question them.... In my head ofcourse.... Again, introvert.
     There were three of them. Only two continuously turned back though. The third person turned only twice. He looked oblivious and yet indulged. I looked at him the same time he turned around and we made eye contact, It was so odd. He didn't seem to mind though. He simply looked bored and completely absorbed in what was going on in his earpiece and phone and yet slightly curious.
      I can't believe they kept turning back because of their curiosity for my accent. I had to pay attention to their gossip to know why I'm a subject of interest.... Duh.
    
      I entered class early today. I no longer trek alone considering the very early mornings, not to speak of the cold weather and scary dark road.... Shivers. I walk to school alongside Amanda, Darby, Lily and Miranda or Mia.... Whichever one... It turns out Mia is a nickname. No wonder she introduced herself as Miranda not Mia. I always wondered why she did so if everyone calls her Mia. She didn't exactly clarify, I had to figure it out before questioning her...... Ouch... Brain pain... NOT.
       I mostly trek along with Lily because she seems most punctual. She doesn't get tardy like ever.
       I sit in class with my available roommates . Nothing special happened, we had normal boring lectures and what not. I observe people and remain silent. Try really hard to pay attention and then the torture was finally over.
      It was time to not listen to lectures. Time for me time as in time for me to take my time and study.
      I try, I really try but it's really not working. All I do are assignments and then doze off. Instead of dozing off today though I suddenly remember a person online that seems like he can help me. His name is Dr. Water. He got admission here as well and I'm pretty sure he is the same person I saw in class today being nominated as class rep. I chat with him over the phone since before uni began. He sounded super smart today in class as I closely observe him challenging the lecturer. I should totally be more like him. Too bad I'm an introvert.
       I figured him out but he still doesn't know who I am. I take out my phone and text him to see if he is free for the day..... Bummer.... He just texted back saying he isn't. Too bad I'll just look for an alternative for now. I sit by myself hoping to at least grab something off my notes but.....
       "Hi Amie! What are you up to" Miranda, Mia pops up.
       "Hi Mia, I'm trying to study here but..... As you can see, it's not working out." I wished I said but I didnt ofcourse. Instead I remain silent and show her my book. I can't believe me.
       "oh, you are studying, I see." I nod yes in agreement and remain silent.
       " well I want to study too but it's not just me, I have a few friends, we study together, do you want to join us? " she asks.........

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See you next time fellas
This is where it all begins
Dramatic twists and turns
Unnecessary events
Hated moments and pure unsure regret
Love that won't fade away
Is it true or is it not

See you next time.