I laid in my bed, music in my ears. After Lei and I kissed, we both went inside and splitted up. Was I really in love with Lei? Or was it just because he cared about me? Were we maybe only good friends?
My stomach growled so I went down to the kitchen to get dinner. After I ordered it, I sat down at one of the barstools and opened the book I took with me, Miss Peregrine's Home For Peculiar Children. One of my favourites. My food came and I started eating, my eyes still wandering over the book. As I was finished, I grabbed my plate and washed it in the sink, not wanting that someone else does that for me. My feet took me upstairs again, knowing I needed to practice on my violin for some time. I picked up the case and packed out my Violin, then starting to play.
My eyes were closed, the bow in my hand and the notes crawled into my ears. It was four minutes long, so it was hard for me to remember everything. I stopped, forgetting the notes. "Seriously?" I packed out my notes and opened them, taking a look over it. "I hate it when that happens." My cheeks turned red, realizing Lei probably was there the entire time. "H-hey." I smiled at him and he smiled back. He had a sparkle in his eyes, that I never saw before. "Did you already eat?" I nodded slightly. There was something unspoken in the air. "Oh, ok." He left the room and I heard how he walked down the stairs, probably going to eat dinner. I sighed, letting my body wall down on the bed.
My body was awake. I was so tired, but I just couldn't sleep. After turning and turning, I stood up from the bed. My feet took me out of the room in front of Lei's door, where I knocked. He opened the door and I was met with a sleepy Lei. "Faye?" I fiddled with my hands. "I can't sleep." A big smile formed on his face. He opened the door fully and stepped to the side. "Come in." Can he read minds? "Uh- thanks." I slowly walked in, he already laying down in the bed again. My body laid down on the other side. There I laid on my side, facing Lei with my back, not falling asleep. There were too many thoughts swirling in my mind. A person suddenly hugged me from behind and laid their head behind mine, breathing into my neck. My body was in shock, I couldn't move. Lei was so near to me, did we already cuddle the last night? I know that I woke up on his side, under his covers. "Get some sleep, Faye." Lei interwined his hand with mine, that laid on my side. "G-goodnight." I closed my eyes, letting his body heat warm me.
My eyes opened and I was met with brown ones. "Goodmorning." I needed some time to realize where I was. Lei's bed, he was still hugging my body, but I was now turned around, leaving between our faces only some inches. I hugged his body tighter, my head snuggling into his shoulder. "I hate to ruin this moment, but we probably should head to university, cuddle bear." I sighed, but knew we needed to stand up. "Fine."
I was wearing a grey sweater and Lei's blue coat over it, when I ran down the stairs, knowing I was late. "When will I get my coat back?" He smiled at me while we walked out towards the car. I just shrugged with my shoulders.
"We're there." I climbed out of the car and grabbed my bag and violin that laid in the trunk. "See you." Before Lei walked away to his friends, that were standing by a bench, he leaned forward and gave me a kiss on the cheek. My face went red and he walked away to his friends, who were smiling like idiots. Oh no, they have seen it all. Was I now his girlfriend? I mean, we were sleeping in the same bed. But we only kissed. We never asked each other if we want to date. My hand reached for my cheek, where I still could feel his lips. 'Concentrate Mizuno.' I shook my head and walked up the stairs to my first lecture, eyes staring into my back.
My body sat down and the teacher began. I tried to concentrate, but my mind couldn't get off Lei. I really needed to listen, but my head couldn't fight against my heart. I sighed, slapping myself then. Some heads turned to me, confused. I just looked down and held my head in my hands. How should I survive this day?
I leaned my back on a wall in a hallway. This day really couldn't get better. I only had one class left, maths, basic course. I'm not sure how I got in there, but I did and if I wouldn't attend, my grades would get worse. So, I made my way into a different building, where I then sat down on a chair.
I could see Meizou, Ximen and Si in the corner of my eye. They were sitting further ahead, probably not seeing me. The class began and the teacher started speaking about the theme. It got so boring, that my eyelids got heavier and not a minute later, I fell asleep on my notes.
"Faye." Lei's voice got me out of my sleep and my head turned up, only to be met with him, his hands laid on the end of the table. "What the-" My head turned around and I saw the whole F4 in front of me. "We meet again." It was Meizou. Now I realised all expect Lei had a dumb smile on their face. "I'll go now-" I packed my things together and headed fast down the stairs, not looking back. Cause I knew from Lei's timetable, he still had a lecture, I decided I would take the metro. It was Wednesday, so normally I would have visited my grandma today. I sighed. She didn't even get a funeral, but a tombstone. So, I would follow my plans and visit her today.
I hated cemeteries. I kneeled down in front of her tombstone and felt my tears already coming in. 'Hey grandma, how are you?' I spoke sign language, cause if ghosts would exist, she would see me, not hear me. 'Do you remember the man I told you about, Lei? We kissed.' Tears dropped down on the grass, no, it was snow. When did it start snowing. I looked up and saw how snow fell from the sky. 'We kissed in the snow, do you think that means something?' I smiled to myself. But did Lei really like me? I only heard from a Jing, that he liked since their childhood, but she didn't like him back the same way. Was I just his distraction from her. My smile faded and I began crying again. Because of my grandma, Lei and everything that happened the last year. It was February, so my birthday got closer. I hate birthdays. I never celebrated.
My feet dragged me into the house, up the stairs. I was sad and depressed. Before I could open the door, a soft hand touched my shoulder. "Where were you so long?" I sighed. "Can't I go out anymore?" I knew he was just caring, but I really wanted to lay down. "Of course, I was just worried." He turned around and walked away. "Lei." His head turned to me. "What are we?" He raised his eyebrows, than was lost in his mind. "I'm not sure. We're more than friends, that is sure." I knew where this was going. "We are.. very good friends." My eyes got watery. "Yeah. Of course." I opened the door to my room, closed it behind me and slided down the wall. I cried out in silence. This man just broke my heart.