In the Deep

chapter 30

         SIX MONTH LATER
     
Taj
          The past six month have been a learning experience, I have been trying to work on my relationship with my mother, holding down a internship,  university and I full time relationship is crazy.
       I am not on my way to go see my mother who is at the moment throwing a tantrum with the nurse taking care of her.
       Answering my ringing phone that's connected to my car
       "Hello" my voice sounding exasperated.
     "Taj" hearing Nichole's voice gave me some solace.
      " yea Mum I am on my way just a bit of traffic holding me up"
      "What time you have class today ?" Her voice sterner than usual I knew she was going to chew me out.
     "Class start at 6:30" I look at my watch to see its after 4:30.
     " so why tou coming here,the traffic tedious and you going to beuck yuh neck to get ba k into kingston!" She was fuming
     "Mum mi just wah come get are settled, this will be her 5th nurse abs soon nobody nah go wah stay wid har !"
I was at my witts end with my birth mother and her horrid behavior towards ppl.
      " I am home now so I will go over there and see what I can do until you get here cause I know you won't turn back". Her words put a smile on my face
     " thanks mum" I spoke before she hang up on me without a goodbye
   I was stuck in traffic for a good 30mins.
      Driving into my mother's drive way I headed into the house.
      Shouting between my two mothers was constant and I was somewhat use to it.
       "You blaming me for getting pregnant!" Nichole words had me slowing down and had mi wanting to hear more.
       " I warned you about Evarton, you choose not to listen, I was stuck with him and you choose to marry him!" The hurt in Nichole's voice was evident.
      "You chose this life and still play the victim as if you are innocent, I had no choice in staying with Everton, you did and you choose to stay and I had to not only protect me but those two little girls" I heard sobbing but I needed to know more these curve balls keep coming, daddy was with Nichole first.
      " protect us from what?" Both women looked like deers caught in headlights
     " stay in a child place" My mother spoke
    "Child's place? Where is that ?" I was getting pissed
      "Ants please stay calm, we will have this conversation in due time." Nichole's voice calmly spoke
     " I want to know now ! Both of you with this breadcrumbs talking, sneaking around, talk!" I was not letting up this time.
       Nichole and my mother shared a  look,
     "Dont" my mother spoke up
  " Mummy, talk because I am this close to  cutting you both out of my life and surely Shante will follow" I spoke folding my arms
       " I can't remember a time when Evarton wasn't in my life, he was my constant, we were best friends and overtime he became more to me, his ambition was one of his best qualities and never willing to settle, over time his association caused my parents to cut ties with me, we headed to university and your mother was my dorm mate, she and Everton started to date openly enen tho she knew he was mines in some ways, I couldn't deny him either way because we were tied together by things we had done," she spoke with grief
       " things like what?" I need to know
    " things that cam get us thrown into jail, mostly me" I saw the fear in her eyes
      "Continue" I spoke
  " she choose to join in on the madness, miss Uptown just wanted to step our of her sheltered life, I truly git to know your mother and thought we had become friends. I confied in her and told her everything about the type of person she was involved with, my parents died and I had no way of pay for funeral and other expenses I felt guilty for mot trying to patch up our broken relationship but Evarton payed for everything, that was the last nail in the coffin as he had me right were he needed me by his side as he got married forced me to move in next door as he used her to spy on me and keep me in line. She has no problem with him having sex with me or having me do unethical things, when I found out I was pregnant she told him to make me abort I refused an that's how shante became, she is mad about the affair she is mad ppl found out, because in that moment he gave me a small piece of joy and that was his only love he ever shown me in years. Both you girls are my pride and joy and I will always love and protect you. The things your father has done will come back to haunt us and I have done everything to make sure that it never affects you two" her tears were a sign of her unburdening.
          Hugging her I whispered small words of encouragement.
      " this is all madness, just behave like adults, I can't keep coming here to deal with you treating ppl like shit!" I called in the nurse and apologized asking here to just do wat she can and call me in time of need.
     " I won't be coming back to deal with your madness and if this one leaves,  your in you own" I not looking at her and leaving the house.

            Class was a blank for me, the professor's mouth kept moving and I didn't understand a thing he was saying. My ears  kept ringing and my head was jiving off a buzzing sound. I felt a a try of nervousness clear signs of a migraine. All my mind was focused on was how much I don't really know about my parents, mainly my father, all the thing that I wasn't seeing  the looming fear in both My mother's eyes. I felt pitty for Nichole but also a lingering though on what does mu father knows that so vile that it may cause jail time for Nichole.
     That my mother is an accessory to all thst is evil and bitter.
      Shante still been in the dark about all this, because If she knew i would be aware of it all.
       I felt a touch on my shoulder it was a girl in my class name Cheryl.
     "Class over" she spoke a d it took a while for me to comprehend si she kept standing with a worried look. Tool a few seconds for me to understand
   "Oh yeah, my mind isn't right today and its giving me a migraine" I spoke give her a small smile.
She returned the gesture
     " mi know dem way deh" I took up my bag and we both walk out to the dimly lit parking lot.
  As we approach out  cars I started to laugh and felt as tears pricked my eyes because he was standing by my car with roses in hand abd walked over and hugged him
     "You go girl" Cheryl spoke as she entered her car
      I felt as hung tears soaked his navy blue shirt, bur I held on for dear life, he hugged me back.
        " you wanna talk about it?" Justin asked
    Shaking my head  No.
He hugged me a little tighter.....
" let's go home" he lead me to the passenger door opened it an watch as i took my seat before closing it an taking his place in the driver's seat.
    We rode home in silence with the feel of him rubbing his hand along my thigh.
       We got home to dimly lit lights, rose petals lined the floor leading to the master's bath room.
        " bbe!!!!" I turned and kissed him
" when did you plan this?" I ask hiding my face in his chest.
      " I had help, your welcome" he kissed my forehead.
        " you joining me?" I gave him a smirk.
     Without answering he starts ro unbutton his shirt, I mimic his actions and soon we were both naked sinking into the warm lavender smelling water.
       We soaked away the stress of the day. I pushed all the darkness away and dwell in the man behind me,how much he as stood by me and continue to support me. The feel of his fingers on my harding nipples had me wanting him all over me.
       Standing up si there wasn't too much spilling from the tub I saddles him while caressing his appendage in my hand stoking him as he moaned in to my neck.
       " sex isn't always the answer to issues enno T" he was steering in my soul.
      " your mouth saying one thing but you body say another" with those words I guided his dick inside my wet pussy.
       "FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!" He cried out before wrapping his arms around my waist to guide my strokes
       I spilled all my love abd appreciation in our love making by the time I got out the bath and cleaned up I was ready to curl up and sleep.
     Getting into bed with my man cuddling up next to me.
        Thank god for my Man!!!!!!