MR..BOSS// JJK

AFRAID TO LOVE

Y/n pov

I was doing my work and jungkook called me in his office for 100th time.
I know he is so doing this for my attention but now i am frustrated.
He is now annoying me.

Usually he dont fool around in working hours but today he is acting different.
Nothing like a arrogant and full of himself jungkook.
He is acting like a child trying to get my attention.
And for some reason i am liking it.

I entered inside his cabin and found him doing something in his phone.

Y/n: you called me?

Jk: yeah!

He said looking at me.
His face looks serious.

Y/n: for what?

Jk: my parents wants to meet me.

He said sighing.

Y/n: so? Aren't you happy?

Jk: i am..but they always talk about marriage when they meet me. They always tell me to go on dates with the girls they choose.

Y/n: so?

Jk: so? Should I get married then?

He said looking at me with a done face.

Y/n: yes you should if your parents wants you to.

I said shrugging my shoulder like i don't care but i do care.
Jungkook scoffed at his word.

Jk: with whom?

Y/n: the girl they chose for you.

Jk: unbelievable....why would I marry another girl when i have you.

It would be a lie if i says my heart doesn't fluttered.

Y/n: you don't have me.

Jk: y/n...i know you are angry but it's an serious matter. They will really get me married. Aren't you worried?

Y/n: i am not. Why would I be worried? Its not like we are something.

I said looking at other direction.
I don't know why i am saying all this.

Jk: seriously y/n.

Y/n: don't be dramatic we are nothing. And i am sure any girl you will meet will reject you cause you are so cold hearted. How can someone marry you?

Suddenly i heard a loud thud i see jungkook fist on the table and he was looking down.
He was giving me creepy aura.
I know he is angry rn and i fucked up.
Why can't my mouth stay closed?

I gulped down and he suddenly stood up.
He suddenly started to walk towards me.

Jk: what did you said? I am being dramatic? I am cold hearted.

Y/n: n_no...i didn't mean to. I...

I giggled while walking backward.
He pushed me on the wall and put his hand on both sides.
My heart beat raised.

He looked directly in my eyes.
His eyes were showing something..like desperation and helpless.

Jk: y/n..answer me a simple question?

Y/n: what?

Jk: do you really want me to get married with another girl?

I don't want to...but what right do i have.
I looked down and said.

Y/n: its your choice.

Jk: then look at my eyes.

I couldn't look at his eyes.

Jk: don't you have any feelings for me?

I do have but i am afraid that you will leave me like other people in my life.

Y/n: i... don't know.

Jk: you don't know?

He raised my chin by his fingure and made me look at him.

Jk: why are you lieing y/n? Is is so hard to accept it?

Y/n: i..a_m not lieing.

Jk: you are not lieing? Then why are you angry on me from yesterday huh? Why were you jealous?

Y/n: i wasn't jealous.

Jk: you were?

I don't know what to say rn.
Was i jealous? Yes i was.

Jk: y/n..i am going to meet a girl tomorrow for marriage.

My heart ached.

Y/n: then....why are you telling me this?

Jk: just if you don't me to. Y/n just tell me once to not go i will never go. You can take your time to tell me. But for now just stop me.

His eyes were pleading me.
I looked at another direction.

Y/n: why would I stop you? I don't love you or some.....

Suddenly i flinched when he punched the wall beside me.
I was shocked and he was glaring at me.
Its my first time seeing jungkook so angry.

Jk: FOR GOD SHAKE STOP TESTING MY PATIENCE Y/N!

He yelled at me and i closed my eyes.
I was still caged between him and the wall.

Y/n: jungk...

He moved back and yelled.

Jk: JUST LEAVE!!

i flinched and he back faced me.

Y/n: i...

I didn't said Anything and left his cabin.
I sighed did i hurt his feelings?
I really want to cry rn but i can't.

I controlled myself and went back to my desk.
I sat down on the chair and rested my head on the table

I am afraid that he will leave me.
I am not someone anyone can love.
Nobody can love.

Every one left me my parents left me outside the orphanage...my one and only best friend in school started to hate... everyone hated cause i was a orphan..the person i use to like at college also hated me.

A tear left my eye but i quickly wiped it.

Y/n: i am..just scared.

I am scared that i will be broken after he will also leave me.
I somehow managed to leave alone without anyone.
I was alone this whole time.
I just  can't accept him suddenly in my life.
Why Can't he understand?

He can express his feelings but i can't.
How should I tell you?
Again some tears left my eyes but this time i didn't stopped them and let them flow.

I didn't realise when i fell asleep crying.

After sometime....

It was already time to leave but y/n was asleep.
Jungkook came out and see y/n sleeping.
He walked closer to her and kneel down to see her face.

But he frowned seeing some dry tears stain on her face.
He wiped them and caressed her cheek.

Jk: were you crying because of me?

He sighed and kissed her forehead.

Jk: i am sorry to yell at you. I don't know why you can't tell me your feeling but i will not give up.

Jk: Tomorrow you will confess to me and i promise!