Prisoner #56

Chapter 10

"WHAT?!"

Marlin looked at me as if I had entirely crushed his world.

Shit, I thought, that probably wasn't the right thing to say.

I've always been awful with words. I knew I would fuck this up, one way or another.

Feeling very embarrassed then, my bluntness ruining everything, I blushed a bit.

"Oh, um...I, I mean, that's not how I wanted that to come out," I said.

Marlin looked very cross.

"That was pretty loud and clear to me."

"No, wait! Hear me out, please! I appreciate you coming out and telling me your story. I know that was not a very easy thing to do. However, I did want to tell you something. That's why I wanted to meet you here in the first place."

I cleared my throat, my heart beating faster. I have no idea how this will turn out, but I had to do it. I had to say what was on my mind.

"Maybe you weren't wrong thinking about us being more than friends."

Marlin gave me a quizzical look.

"Come again?" the Bonneville asked.

I cleared my throat again, blushing. I swear I have never made a confession like this before. I've never felt so awkward.

"I said, maybe you weren't wrong thinking that there was something between us."

Marlin looked very confused. I could tell, because all he did was stare at me.

I feel stupid. I sighed.

"Look, so, a while back, when I was a sad, alone and an obese sonofabitch, you shared with me your friendship. I never thought anyone would do that, considering my record. Yet, you did, and I will always appreciate that.

Yet, something strange happened back then. You smiled at me when I acknowledged to everyone that I was a horrible car and, and this feeling came over me. I didn't know what it was back then because it was so foreign to me, so I passed it off as nothing.

I felt it again when you still wanted to be associated with me after I almost killed the Ram. That someone like you would even want to be around me after seeing the worst side of me, but you did Marlin. That feeling, when you smiled at me, made me feel really warm inside, but I didn't know what the hell it was. I simply ignored it, didn't pay any mind to it, but I should have. I really should have. I should have told you about that feeling a long time ago, but I didn't, because I didn't understand."

I cleared my throat again, blushing harder, my voice starting to shake a bit as I spoke. The words kept pouring out of me and as I kept going, I felt as if they were running out of my mouth, and I couldn't stop them.

"Then, you asked if we wanted to be together. My first thought was that I've been with women my whole life. I can't be with a man. Hell, no. Right? But then, one night, I, um, you know, was playing with myself and something really strange happened. All of a sudden, in my perverted thoughts, I thought of you. My mind thought of you and that warm smile you always give me, and, and that feeling I didn't understand overtook me. It took me over so bad I came instantly, like I exploded, like, I made so much cum. I've never made that much cum in my life. I still don't understand, but your face made me do that. I was so confused.

And then, the next morning, after all of that, I parked at the table with you at breakfast and you smiled at me again. I think you thought I still felt awkward about you confessing your feelings to me. I wasn't, Marlin. Your smile made that foreign feeling rise up in me again and it gave me a fucking hard on. Right there in the mess hall. All I could do was stare at you because, well, because I had no idea what to do. I didn't know how to handle this feeling."