𝐂𝐨𝐝 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐞 ; 𝐇𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮? 𝐩𝐭 𝟓

[not proof red like usual]

[also if you go onto tattoo for ghost in my previous book then you will see what happened and it will make sense for when you read the beginning of this chapter.
If not go check it out]

as price told you. He would be coming in tomorrow to talk to you, you grew nervous. 
Your heart beat as you kept looking at the clock.
What the hell would you two be talking about?
I mean..you missed him for some weird reason but you didn't wanna talk..

You heard the alarm 4:30 AM
Yup that's right. 4 fucking 30.
You slept for about 2 hours. Your thoughts went through your head of what was gonna heron when you two talked.

Getting out of bed you went to change and put your hair and very very light makeup on.
Each time you thought about your captain your heart raced and anxiety started forming inside you.
It was like a boiling pot, the lid was steaming about to burst.

Your thoughts where cut off shot by a loud knock
"Hurry up" ghost said from the outside
You scoffed and lazily got out of your chair before unlocking the door and heading out.
"Morning." You tell him he hums and walks beside tou
"So you and soap?" He asked
You sighed remembering soap

Ghost seen it and chuckled lightly
"Not what you're in to?" He asked
You shrugged "I don't know...this passes year is the first time I've been able to do anything, make friends and all that. I like him, yes. But do I love him? Eh I'm not quite sure.." you tell him

Ghost sighed reminiscing on his last lover
"If you don't love someone...it's not worth dragging them along with you. If their is no love why stay?
If you go along a road and meet a man I'm sure John will be happy for you...but as a friends of him..do not hurt him. Do not make him feel like shit. Ok?" He said sternly at the last second

"I understand...did you have a lover?" You asked him
He gripped his vest
"I thought about her day and night..she- she was getting in my head..I could notice I was doing sloppy jobs and everything..I needed her to forget me..I needed to forget her..." he mumbled to you

You looked at him
"H-how?" You asked
"This is horrible..what I'm about to say..
I told three soldiers of my recruiting squad to go to her job..tell her I was dead..gave her my things.. I was young and naive..having someone- I - I just couldn't bare the pain so.." he was cut off by you
"So you made her think you're dead?!" You said mad at him

He glared at you
"You don't understand what I was going through at that time...I got attached and I knew she did. I had to cut it off.." he said
"How long ago was it.." you asked him
He looked away
"Long..cmon now." He said walking in front of you

You grew sad hearing about him. God what a horrible day to start off.

As you walked into base you stared at price. He turned around and stared at you
You looked away quickly before sitting on a bench as he talked. König was beside the captain as well as they talked over. Well mostly price, König was well a peculiar guy.

"Ok you guys go train outside. Run 30 laps." He said
You got up last but where taken back by price
"Let's talk." He said
You looked at him "what about?" You said pretending to not know

"Y/n." He said sternly
You nodded lightly before going outside with him and sitting on a bench
You two sat in silence as you watched the men and women run
"Who was that lady last night?" You asked
"Some girl I had met at a bar one time, she ended up coming back for her clothes she left one night." He said quite bluntly
"So..are you two?"
"No no." He said

You hummed "how was the party?" He asked
You shrugged "it was ok.." you tell him
You smiled at soap as he ran
Price hummed "you looked beautiful.." he said
"Thank you." You mumbled

"I talked with my high ups..they said that in a couple weeks or maybe month or so, you'll be moved to a female quarters.." he said
"If I move I'll be going into a different group." You looked at him
He nodded lightly not looking at you
"Do you really not like me that much? Do you really want me to leave?" You asked him

He shook his head no still not looking at you
"Wow..ok then" you tell him about to get up but he held onto your hand
"Sit down please.." he looked at you finally

You scoffed and sat down
"What." You tell him
"Come to my place later tonight ok?"
He whispers to you

You sighed and nod
Even if you pretended to think you knew you'd be saying yes anyways.
"Can I ask you something.." you tell him

He hums
"What's in that room..the one I'm not allowed in.." you asked
His posture flattened and his knee shook
"You don't have to say anything it's o-" he cut you off
"No it's fine...we'll uhm a long time ago when I was in my early 20s..I had married my high school girlfriend.
We lasted for a long time...but I was away a lot doing this job..my feeling for her slowly left me and..and I was confiding with another women..."

He said and paused for a bit before starting back
"She knew it too, yet my wife chose to stand by me.
She had smelt the perfume..she has seen the hickeys..she seen it all..but because she was still head over hills for me she stayed, and I ruined that.
One of my seconds big missions she had found out she had cancer..yet she never told me..and I would never notice until I finally returned home to see her all skinny.." he said

"She shook as she tried to pick her arms up to touch my cheeks..her once beautiful body was now..
Well..week and fragile...old like. Yet she still had her beautiful voice..accept it sounded a bit like she was sick..my heart sunk seeing her this way..seeing what I left..she tried to hold my hand but she shook each time." Tears brimmed into his eyes

"I..I decided to stay with her for two weeks to help her..
The second week I woke up on Monday, turned next to her and felt her cold to the touch..." he said

"I can't go in that room..everything is left the exact same way it was as before..her clothes...my old ones...her jewelry..her ring.." he mumbled

"I regret not spending any time with her..I hate myself knowing that she stood by me...I hate that instead of leaving her horrible husband she chose to stay...". He said tears went down his cheek

You put your hand slowly onto of his and gripped onto it lightly
"It's ok.." you looked at him and wiped his cheek with your other hand
He sighed and wiped his face off before chuckling lightly
"I deserved it..what I did.." he said

"Captain- please.." you stared at him
He was about to talk before the others started to walk back
"My house 8." He looked at you before getting up