Is the Future Really Now!?

Because You Were There.

Date:July 18th 

Time: 8:00 AM

Today is the day that we release the minior back into it's natural habitat. I can't say I'm excited about it, but I can't say I'm the most upset about it. Just as long as those memories won't come back. Y'know like memories from the exact time of the incident? If they don't I should be mentally okay enough to release them with no tears and no signs of being a "wuss" as Kyle would call me.

I may have to relive the incident again, but I still have to get up and go to work. So, as always I get ready, prepare my lunch, have Togedemaru by my side, but this time it's going to be different. I'm going to take a nice solemn walk to work today. To reflect and look back on minior. The good times of hanging out with it of course! What did you think I meant did you think I was gonna purposely give myself a trauma trigger? I would never...

As I'm walking to work, I notice myself start to get a bit teary eyed. Togedemaru gets on my head as she normally would when I was a kid and starts to pat it. I smile at this fact and pat her head too... We arrive to work and I go to Ellery's desk glumly to get instructed on what to do today. Ellery says that Damien will meet me in my office, and I was excused from making my satellite model for today because he knows today may be a bit harder for me...

There's a bed in my personal office. Everyone has a bed in their personal office. It's either commonly used on break or it's used when workers need to stay overnight to finish an important project. Since I don't have anything to do besides wait for Damien I go and lay down on the bed in the room and have Togedemaru lay next to me. My entire body is shaking. I really don't want to be the one releasing minior, but I know that I am required to do it. 

As I lay in my bed while I'm waiting for Damien, I hear my office door open. It's my mentor Damien. A sudden feeling of relief washes over me as I realized it was him. He sits next to me on the floor next to the bed and starts to talk to me. We talk about how hard this is going to be for me to do, but Damien reminds me he will be right next to me if I can't handle it, and that Kyle isn't allowed to be in the same place as I am so he can give me some space. This fact makes me really happy. No Kyle, Damien is there for me, I'm relaxed in this bed, and everything seems to be okay right now.

Ellery comes over the intercom and says "Cadet Sophocles and Mentor Damien to the front desk please." He repeats that phrase a couple of times to make sure everyone can hear what was said. Damien and I do what we are asked. We head to the front desk to see what Ellery needs. Ellery then informs us that it is time to... release the minior... I almost cry at hearing this but I try to stay strong in front of Ellery and Damien. But then I think about this, It's not just one minior we are releasing, there's seven of them! And one of them is pink core! The color of minior that I so happened to get attached to... When these minior get released we don't mean just get released into the wild, we mean into the atmosphere where they...I choke up at this thought and look down.

At the sight of this, Damien pats my shoulder and says "It's okay Sophocles I swear to you, It will all be worth it in the end... Just imagine! They would've gotten eaten super early if it weren't for us saving them!" Damien then smiles at me, trying to reassure me. It doesn't loosen my throat it just makes me have a bit of a shaky smirk. I nod and go outside with Damien where we will release the minior. It's a small place next to the water. So the particles have a better chance of landing in the water than getting eaten.. Which is okay I guess... I mean it could reproduce and create more life..

I take a deep breath and release all seven of the minior one by one. I'm saving the pink one for last because I'm just not ready to get rid of it as soon as the other ones. Since I'm too choked up to say anything, (because if I said anything I would bawl) I only wave goodbye. Damien actually says goodbye, all I can do is wave.. how stupid of me. When it finally comes time to say goodbye to the pink minior, I get a few tear drops on its core. I then release it up into the air, and then there it goes. gone. I relived the minior incident.. it's kind of odd that I didn't cry yet. The thought will dawn on me soon I bet though. Damien gestures me to go inside with him. I don't know why but like a scared little child I hold his hand while walking with him...

Damien doesn't even question this. He just looks at me and smiles. And he says "Happy to help!" in a sweet way even though I didn't even say anything that indicated that he helped but... he sure did. We report back to Ellery that all of the minior have been released. Ellery then gives us a break for the rest of the day as he knows how stressful releasing minior could've been for me. Damien follows me back to my office and sits down next to me again except we're on the floor. This isn't very manly of me to do or brave of me to do but I.. I bawl. Nothing but tears and sobs. All Damien can do is sit there. He can't think of anything to say in this situation and honestly I don't blame him. I mean what would you do if you saw a grown man crying over something as little as remembering a traumatic incident through reliving it? But, Damien does something I didn't ever expect him to do.

He puts his arms around me and pulls me into a tight hug. As if we were boyfriend and boyfriend. Damien then asks me "Why were you so strong earlier? It wasn't healthy to hold back all of those negative emotions like that you know?" I then look back up at him and say "Because you were there!" in between sobs.